pov. Charles Lee
I saw Aaron waiting for me on his porch. It was so nice how he would always wait for me to show up. I ran over and Gave him a tight hug making him do his adorable little chuckle before squirming out of my grasp. He sat down on the hanging bench on his porch and I sat right next to him.
"so Aaron how did you get suspended, and for how long" I asked worried for him.
"I kinda got in a fight earlier today" he said nervously.I was surprised, Aaron almost never fought with others, I mean I fought all the time but Aaron wasn't like that. I quickly looked at him, was he hurt, did someone hit him, if some one hurt him I would kill them, it would be slow and painful and probably involve starvation.
"did somebody hit you, are you okay, did you get hurt?" I asked the questions pouring out of me like running water. I moved a little closer to him examining his face and arms looking for any bruises or scratches.
"I'm fine Charlie, don't worry about it" He said gently placing his hands on my chest and pushing me away from him. I let out a small laugh hoping the darkness would hide the fact I was blushing. I had wanted him to be mine for so long and yet, he was so focused on Thomas he couldn't seem to see that I loved him more than anyone in the world besides Thomas belonged with James, they needed each other. I tried to distract myself from all the thoughts racing through my mind.
"so how long did you get suspended?" I asked
"only one week... dad is so disappointed in me though" he replied looking at the ground in shame. I wrapped one arm around him and smiled as he looked up at me with his two perfect deep brown eyes.
"It's okay, I'm sure he's just worried about your future and how this could affect you" I said watching as he nervously fiddled with his sleeve like he did whenever he was nervous. He leaned a little closer to me and butterflies were in my stomach. I let out a small sigh of content. We both sat there in silence just enjoying each other's company. I loved it when he would be like this, I always had to be so strong around everyone in my life and if I wasn't I would fail but around Aaron I could just be me and he would still care for me. He would never Love me as much as he loved Thomas but I wanted to pretend he did. "he's just like the rest of them, this time he just felt pity on you, and you! your just a dumb bastard I can't believe you opened up to him about your feelings, He loves Thomas so stop being such a dumb fucking selfish whiny bitch and stop thinking one day he'll fall for you, he'll just leave you and you'll die alone... you'll always be alone you waste... why can't you just finish the job... don't forget what your father told you... never forget..."
"Charlie what's wrong" Aaron asked placing a hand on my cheek. I placed a hand on my face only to feel wet tears rolling down my cheeks."oh wow look the baby made himself cry how sad" the voice rung out in my skull again. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes with my sleeves and looked away from him. "You're weak you don't deserve to cry when others hurt so much more"
"Charles?" he asked, genuine concern in his voice. I never told him about the voices in my head, I never told anybody. I didn't want to make them worry and yet I knew Aaron would ask and ask even if it took a million years he would be willing to wait for an answer.
"just thoughts" I mumbled. he wrapped his arms around my waist making me blush even more. He pulled me close to where I was almost on his lap. I gently rested my head on his chest and he. we continued to sit there until my watch beeped.I looked down and flinched in shock. 11:00 p.m. we had been here for 2:00 hours already.
"hey Aaron, I gotta go" I muttered only to realize he had fallen asleep with me in his lap.
"oh my precious little Ronnie" murmured to him. he was too heavy for me to carry and I didn't feel like waking his parents up since they already hated me, beside it felt so nice and wonderful with his arms wrapped around me, my head rested on his chest. my little sisters were at my grandmothers house for the week and my mother wouldn't even notice if I went missing for months so I'm sure one night would do any harm. I gently moved a little so my face was closer to his chest. I wrapped my arms around him and snuggled my face into my chest. "he's not yours" "I don't care" "your fucking worthless" "don't care" "no one will ever love you" "Aaron... " "doesn't care about you" "he..." "wants you to go kill yourself" "I'll do that later" "But-" I felt myself fall into a deep sleep snuggled against the only person that mattered in this world.
