mine mine number nine

five

winona lola pov: back at home: 5:15 pm
i get out of my shower smelling like vanilla, blow drying my hair. im going to some what take nicks advice, a black dress. comfy, cute, can't go wrong with it. so i add some heels and gold jewelry.
sitting down at my vanity i put on my lippie and sing along to ariana's discography.

"i'm better oooofff being a willlddd ooonneee" i sing until i hear my doorbell, it's only 6:00 pm.
i walk downstairs to see joe behind my front door.

i open the door, maybe i shouldn't be so happy it's him. i open the door to see him with flowers, smiling down at me.
"so you're really going on this date, huh?"
"yeah, why would i lie?" i scoff letting him in.
he puts his hand on my back as i face away from him. it's so still in this moment, im on that mountain again. about to fall.
all i hear is my music playing — i turn around in his arms.
"stay with me tonight?" he whispers.

i should go out. i should explore. and so i will.
"joe, cmon." i touch his face.
its smooth and warm against my cold hand.
"one kiss." he smirks.
"one."

i wrap around him as he fully kisses me, grabbing me closer to him. i separate one i can feel him (and myself) going back for another.
"im going to put these in water." i say.
he closes the front door.
i waltz through my hallways once i know he can't see me. twirling around with the roses in my hand. soaking them in water, i can hear him follow. all i want is him.

we're on opposite side of the island.
i keep replaying the kiss, something was wrong with it. like it was more sad than it should've been.
"joe?"
"olivia is in town tonight, and ... we're gonna hang out. but that's all it is."

why? why? why does he need to hang out with her? it's fine. whatever, that's my sign to move on.

"k."
"don't-" he walks over to me.
i look down, how could he kiss me like that knowing he was going to use that same mouth to tell me these words?
i feel like him grip my wrists softly, i push him away.
"go then."
"not like this, please. it's just two friends-"
"oh! sooo no one else? yeah whatever, just go." i leave the kitchen.
my face feels hot, but i will not cry about this again. i walk up every step and try to not allow myself to go back down to him. he doesn't deserve this hold on me. and so i run away from the mountain all together.
ripping of this dress and putting on a more sensual outfit. a deep red dress, with my boobs more showing, my hair in a ponytail.
a red lip to go with it.
6:31 pm - three knocks.
right on time. as i leave down the staircase i see joe answer the door.
"oh?" joshs voice booms throughout my front entrance.
"sorry about him, my brother needed something." i smile and push joe out of the way.
josh looks very handsome, and also has roses.
i pull him in for a hug, he feels comfy.
"let me put these in water, okay?" i ask.
"okay darling." he smiles.
walking past joe, he stays there with him.

i'm not waltzing anymore, but it's more stable walking now. and isn't that what you want?
stability?