[Y/N's POV]
It's been a few months since I've started my idol career and it was smooth sailing.. I've gained thousands of fans and a solid name in the underground idol shows. And of course Rin was always there, never missing a single performance recording it perfectly.. it's midnight now and I've just finished a show...
"Everyone is so kind! I'm so happy my fans love me.." I said smiling excitedly as I look at the bag full of fan gifts. Rin just let out a sigh and said
"Of course that's why they're called fans.. and also I've realized that your focus is more on this then soccer... I'm only following you because I want to observe how you play and right now you're just-" I immediately cut him off by placing a finger to his lip and said
"Relax Rin! I'm not gonna forget so easily ok? I know my priorities.. don't you worry about a thing... When I got to a certain level of popularity I'm gonna quit ok?" I said smiling proudly.
".....so you're not even serious about this idol thing?" Rin said staring at me.
"well yes I guess? I mean It's just a hobby.. I just want to try something I haven't..' I said. Which Rin just stare at me with a judgmental look. I groaned and lightly punch his arm..
"Don't look at me like that! What do you want from me!" I whined and Rin just scoffed but deep down he felt a tiny bit relieved Which he himself was confused about...
[A FEW DAYS LATER]
Takaba called me to his office for a meeting and said
"Good news! [Y/N]! A fashion agency want you to Collab with one of their models! It's a pretty famous model around the teens so this will totally boost your fame! You'll take it right?"
"Really? I don't really know much about modelling but I guess I'll give it a try.." I said enthusiastically as I accepted. But when I told Rin...
"YOU WHAT???" He yelled in the middle of school hallway.. I was stunned by his reaction as everyone around us stare at us weirdly.. I took him behind the school embarrassed about the attention.. "Keep it down, Rin. Jeez..."
"What were you thinking?! You don't know a thing about modelling?! Stop doing such reckless things! Not everything is smooth sailing! There are a lot of side effects at jobs like that.. You could be subjected to criticisms and many producers will take advantage of newbies like you and even cases like stalking..." Rin said looking super distressed and anxious.. which confused me the usual stoic guy losing his cool like that..
"It's just one gig... and i swear it won't effect my training with you.." I said trying to calm him down.. while not knowing why exactly he's mad about...
"THAT'S NOT THE POINT, DAMN IT!!" He suddenly yelled which shocked me even more..
"T Then what are you mad for?? Why are you so suddenly invested??" I said clueless and extremely confused. Usually he would just brush it off with a whatever...
"BECAUSE-" Rin suddenly stopped as he put a hand over his mouth.. he was sweating and breathing heavily he then let out a tsk and turned away..
"Whatever.. just do what you want..." he said leaving me alone, avoiding my eyes...
[RIN'S POV]
because I don't want you to be seen by hundreds of random strangers!
'What the hell was I about to say?? Was I really going to say that?' I pondered shocked with myself as I continued to walk away... I was confused with myself..
'what's this feeling.. This stinging feeling in my heart.. Why? Why? [Y/N]... What're you doing to me... I hate this... why do i feel that way? why don't i want her to be seen by others than myself... I hate this...'
[Y/N'S POV]
[curved lines like this are rin's thoughts!]
I wasn't able to speak to Rin the whole day... He kept avoiding me all day and i couldn't even find him at practice As I was walking back home dejected, I saw Rin laying on the grass fields staring up at the sky... I stare at him until i decided and sit next to him.. As he saw me he was about to stand up when I grabbed his wrist and said
"Stop avoiding me.... what did i do wrong?? just tell me already.. I don't like it so stop running away from me...." I said looking at him slight pleading eyes
Rin glared at me and looked away closing his eyes.. don't look at me with those eyes... stop messing my head even more... He let out a deep sigh and sit back down...
"Sorry.. I didn't mean to come of as rude... I was..... just... worried..." He said looking away
"worry about what? I know all the things you listed.. and I'll do my best to be careful you know... I can take care of myself just fine!" I said trying to cheer him up
no.. not that.. that's not what I'm worried about... i know you can take care of yourself... i know you don't need me around that much and I hate that... and i don't know why...
"I know.. it's just that.. I don't want you to be manipulated by fame... i want you to live your life peacefully.. away from dangers like that...' he said looking away still hiding his true feelings
But to his surprised, I hugged him from behind burying my face in his back... "Thank you... Rin.. I'm really happy and grateful that you care for me like that but... i really am well be fine..I'm sorry that i've worry you like that... you been a big help for me.. but I'm happy that you're just here.. I don't want you to do anything to that extant for me Rin"
Rin stare at me as I said those words with a smile.. He knows I'm just trying to cheer him up but those words feels like knifes curving into his heart.... don't say that.. no.. why are you telling me to just sit and watch.. why can't you understand.. i want-...... what do i want...? why am i being like this? why do i suddenly feel so helpless? just what are you to me that make me feel things like this...
But Rin just scoffed and ruffles my hair roughly, smiling slightly and said " you better keep your words... don't burden me got it?" Even thought rin said it with a smile.... i can't help but realize how empty his eyes looked..
"yeah sure.." I said smiling softly letting my doubts go for now....
Rin then got up and said.. " Come I'll buy you some ice-cream so stop pouting like a baby..." he said mockingly as he walked ahead..
"What??!! who are you calling baby! and i wasn't pouting!" i yelled embarrassed as i ran to catch up with him..
i don't understand... it's frustrating but you'll help me figure it out... so until i can clearly make up my mind about you.... I won't let you go.
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......
Yeahhh...
Woah.. I was gone huh?
Don't worry I'm perfectly fine..
Yeah I have no words...
I'm really Sorry for the constant delays everyone🙇
I know I'm repeating a lot but I promise I'll continue to do my best...
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for reading and I'll see you next time.
Love you all! Bye!
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