SAO: No Peace ( Discontiuned )

Regret...

POV Change: Sinon

I don't know why I froze up like that...

Why was I suddenly afraid of him...

I've never been afraid of him...

If anything, I was afraid he'd do something reckless, like he always had since the day we first met...

I do know that. I was staring at him...

Like if he were some monster about to strike me down with his black sword, that was now covered in the blood of Shinkawa...

But I do know that I woke up from this fear when I saw him dart off out of the alley with a face filled with regret and his eyes brimming with tears...

"Kii-Bou!!" Argo shouted, trying to call him back to us. I would then shout his name, his real name, to come back to us. At that point, I got off the ground and ran down the alley he was running in. I don't know how somebody who wasn't athletic at all was fast all of a sudden. Without even realizing it, I ended up tripping on myself and fell face-first into a puddle of water. I looked up, and I saw the glimpse of black that was Kazuto disappear into the night alley...

Why did I freeze up....?

Why was I suddenly afraid of him....?

Why....?

Before I knew it, Argo had eventually caught up to me, helping me up from the cold, wet ground. She had asked if I saw Kirito. I told her I did before tripping.

All I knew at this moment was that I was afraid...

But not of him anymore...

But of his current state...

He had killed somebody again, and it was my fault...

If I hadn't gotten so angry earlier, I wouldn't have left our hideout, where Shinkawa was waiting....

He's probably blaming himself for what just happened...

Guilt is taking over his mind...

Anger for himself...

And not to mention the bullet that was in him currently...

I have to find him...

I need to find him...

He's going to die if somebody doesn't treat his wound...

"Sinonon...we gotta go," Argo called out to me. I didn't want to go, not until Kazuto was back with us, safe. So I could beat him for running off with a wound like that before comforting him about what just happened...

How was I going to tell Sugu that her brother had just killed somebody and went up and vanished...

How do I tell Yui...

How do I tell Asuna...

She trusted me to watch over him...

And I call him an idiot...

I'm the idiot...

"Sinonon..." Argo called out again. I told her I was coming, and I followed her...

My thoughts were clouded. What was I going to tell the others? Where is he now? Is he alright? Alive?

.....Dead?

I didn't want the last thought to be true. The last thing I need on my card is my boyfriend....my best friend....dead in the alley. I've already lost my father....my mother...I just lost my first friend...I can't lose Kazuto on the same day...

The moment Argo and I entered the building, we were bombarded with questions, such as "What happened?" "Where were you?". Of course, Sugu asked the million-dollar question. "Where's Kazuto?"

As much as I didn't want to tell them, I had to. I told them everything that just happened, Argo being a witness. I expected them to be upset with me, but they weren't...

They were relieved that I was alright...

I don't deserve their kindness...

Especially after I drove Kazuto off...

Before I knew it, I felt somebody put their hand on my shoulder. It was Asuna. I expected her to chew me out, for letting Kazuto go like that...

"We'll find him, Asada," she said, giving me a weak smile. I don't deserve her kindness...

Asuna was always like the older sister I never had...

She always knew how to make me feel better...

But still...

That doesn't mean I don't regret what just happened...

With all that taken care of, I made my way toward Andrew's old bedroom, where Kazuto and I made our room in the old building, while Asuna treated Argo's wound.

I lay in bed, waiting for everyone to go to bed. It was 1:21 in the morning, and I was slowly making my way out of the café. I didn't have the right to stay with them....

Not after I drove away the person who brought them all together...

The heart of our group...

They weren't going to be happy knowing I ran off like this...

But I don't deserve to be with them...

Not until I bring Kazuto back...

I'll find him...

I know I will...