Rants

I need attention

So I've been in a funk lately and I haven't had the slightest clue as to why. But then it hit me. I remembered one moment and everything made sense.

Cue the dramatic flashback with the italics-
"Kelsey," I heard my mother call. I went upstairs to her room and sat on her bed next to her. "Bethany, please leave while I talk to your sister."

"Okay Mama" and Bethany left.

"Why have you been so rude lately?" She asked, sounding annoyed. This only pissed me off more.

"I haven't. Can I have my iPod back?" I asked, clearly irritated.

"No, why have you been rude?" She was stern, she wasn't going to let this go.

"I need my iPod Mom." I said, trying not to freak out.

"Why?"

"Because my friend needs my help." I said and looked away.

*time skip because you don't need to be nosy*

"Kelsey, come here and give me a hug." With my iPod in my back pocket, I was still extremely aggravated. I gave her a stern look and slowly walked over to her. She put her arms around me and I stiffened. "You're not going to hug back?" She asked. I slowly, so very slowly, so hesitantly, put my arms around her too.

After the hug I went to the bathroom.

And I cried. I cried and shook and broke down because I couldn't remember the last time I fucking hugged my Mom.

And scene.

So yeah. I need some human affection and attention but nobody here cares enough so... that's not happening. I moved a couple months ago and left the greatest friends in the world. Here, everyone is afraid to touch each other and show real emotion. So I've been in a funk lately and I don't see myself escaping anytime soon.

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