Rants

Weird

I feel weird.

I'm gender fluid. What does that mean? It means I want to be a girl somedays, a guy other days, and then there's the shit day where I don't know what to be and I'm left confused.

Lately, I haven't been wanting nor feeling like a girl. But I have breasts. And they aren't that easy to hide. I want a wrap, but I don't have one. And my parents won't let me walk to Walmart on my own, and there is no way in hell I'm telling them.

I've been at a crossroads and I've been not only hating life, but myself. I've been considering suicide way to much. I won't kill myself, but I think about how amazing it would be if I wasn't here. Who's ever going to love a freak like me?

I hold no bad judgement to other gender fluid or transsexuals, but on myself I don't like it. It's almost like an insecurity. Like how you like crop tops but you won't ever wear it cause you may not like your stomach. Yeah, like that.

So yeah.

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