Y/n's POV:
I wake up to a beeping sound and excruciating amount of pain in my head.
It hurts to move. I want to open my eyes but it feels like they are glued shut.
I try to force them open only to have them be shut by the blinding light.
'if this is what heaven feels like I really don't wanna be here 'i think.
There's a weight on my hand. I can't see what it is. I try to slowly move my head and open my eyes again to see what the hell is going on.
One second I am in a burning gas station the next i'm here, wherever this is.
I try to lift my arm, I practically can't feel my leg at this point.
Something jostles ,I almost scream. If I had the energy I probably would have but I'm too tired to do anything right now.
"Doll...... You're awake?"it's Bucky's voice. I would recognise it anywhere but he says this like he can't believe I am awake.
What the hell is going on?
I try to speak but nothing comes out of my mouth. I almost start to panic.
"Hey, hey. Relax. You're okay. You're okay. You are alive. They got you out just in time".
'got me out? Who?'
Bucky helps me with a glass of water.
I can finally speak now. So I ask all the million questions in my head.
Starting with"What the hell is going on?"
"Baby, relax. I'll explain everything. First let the doctor check you out".
I don't fight him.
He calls the doctor in he does some check ups and says I'm better and will be good to go in no time.
I don't understand anything.As soon as he leaves us alone. I ponder bucky with questions.
"What happened? How did I get out? Who got me out? How didn't I die? Are you okay? Did I scare you too much? I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have left. Im sorry baby".
"Doll... Doll. Easy. Easy. Breathe. The people outside the gas station called 911 on time,they got you out before the place blew up. I had just reached there when that happened."he explains.
"Oh my God"I gasp thinking how close I was to dying.
"I thought I'd lost you forever. That I would never see you again. God,I wanted to die."he says. His voice filled with pain. He softly caresses my cheek,I lean into his touch even though it hurts to do so.
"You scared the life out of me."his voice was harsher than before, complete contrary to his touch.
"How could you just say goodbye to me on the phone?How could you decide to give up that easily? What was I supposed to do if something happened to you? How was I supposed to live without you?"he says angrily still holding my hand as if he is scared that I'll disappear.
"I didn't want to. I just didn't think I was getting out. I want to hang on, trust me. I really did for as long as I could, but I also couldn't leave without saying goodbye."
"So I don't even deserve an in-person goodbye. Was it that way for you? Leaving me?"he says still angry but sad at the same time.
"It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me".I please because I need him right now. I need him to stay and not be mad at me.
He stays silent for a while.
"You have a broken leg and you lost a lot of blood so you are gonna be dizzy. I'll be here if you need anything"he says changing the topic. His voice monotone. He is not even looking at me now.
"Buck..... Please"I break into tears. This whole day had been a lot and I can't hold it in any longer.
He holds me through my break down, kissing the top of my head, whispering sweet nothing into my ear trying to calm me down.
Some time later I stop sobbing into his chest and look upto him "please forgive me. I can't lose you".
"Doll you're not gonna lose me. I'm just a little mad right now and not particularly at you. I'm mad at me for not being with you when you needed me. I'm mad at the situation,at the world for putting us in that position. I just don't want that to every happen again."he said softly replacing the anger in his voice.
"It won't. I'll be more careful. Just don't go"I plead.
"I won't. I'm right here ,okay?"
"Okay"
"Bucky"
"Hmmm"
"I love you"
"I love you too baby".
