Luke
"Morning." I mumble to Calum scratching my head while yawning. I walk to the toilet and try to wake up enough to aim into the toilet. Calum just nods to me, continuing to brush his teeth.
I finish my business and walk over to the sink to wash my hands. "'Scuse me." I stand next to him by the sink. He shuffles over a little and continues to brush his teeth still not looking at me. I shake my head and roll my eyes turning the faucet on.
We've been dating for about 2 years now. It doesn't feel like it anymore. We used to be inseparable, clinging onto each other, constantly cuddling , and the kissing. Oh the kisses. I let out a small sigh.
Calum finishes up and leaves the room. Leaving me with the plain Hotel room. Nothing on the walls but pointless picture frames.
*~*~*~*~*
"You guys ready to meet and great some fans?" Ashton asks trying to get us pumped. "Fuck-shit-balls yeah!" Says Michael.
"Michael what the hell?"
"It's my new favorite word made from all of my favorite curse words." He explains. I just shake my head and walk into the venue.
As soon as we walk into our dressing room, Calum goes straight to the couch and stares at his phone, no doubt looking through Twitter. I look at the seat next to him on the couch longingly, but decide against it. Instead I turn to Michael to find him laughing at something with Ashton.
"What's so funny?" I ask. Michael turns the phone to me and I see that Twitter is open. There's a video of us that was posted on some update account. It's an old keek from when our band was just starting to get big. It's the one where were all doing piggyback races Mashton vs. Cake. I trip over my own legs and me and Calum go crashing into the floor, both of us laughing.
I laugh at the video but my smile slowly fades. That video was taken a couple months after Calum said yes to being my boyfriend. We were in what some would call our "honeymoon phase". Now look at us.
Michael speaks, "Man things have changed."
I keep my gaze on the paused video. "Yeah. They have." I look up at Calum and see he hasn't moved from his spot.
"The fans are on their way boys, get ready." Our tour mom warns us.
Calum slips his phone into his pocket and walks over to the rest of us just as the fans come into the dressing room.
"Oh my god Luke!" One screams and runs to me pulling me into a bone crushing hug.
"Hi." I try to squeeze out.
She pulls back, "oh my god Calum!" She hugs him too before yelling "CAKE. I can't believe I just met Cakes . I can't believe I just hugged Cake! You guys have been my OTP before you even came out and I'm in love with your love. I can't breathe. I think I'm dead. Never mind I'm not."
I laugh at her and give an uneasy smile. Calum pulls me close to him and hugs me around my waist, snuggling his face into my shoulder. I wrap my arm around his shoulders and kiss his forehead. The girl in front of us screams in delight waving her arms up and down.
Calum smiles up at me but he's not actually here. I can see it in his eyes, he's off in another world. I know this isn't genuine. I know this because we do it every time we see fans. We cuddle up and act as if we've never been more in love, but it's all an act. Right when they leave we pull away and act as if nothing happened. And today is no exception.
One we say hello to the handful of fans, they leave us, and Calum leaves my side returning to the couch.
"Great job boys, now get ready. There's 20 minutes till you're on stage."
*~*~*~*~*
The show is going great, the fans love our new album and they know the lyrics to every song.
I strum the last chord of Hey Everybody letting it ring through the speakers. I wipe the sweat that's dripping from my forehead and grab a water bottle to take a few swigs.
"Thank you all so much. We love you! We wouldn't be anything without you. This next song is castaway!" Ashton yells.
Michael strums the first few chords giving me time to get my stuff together and sing the lyrics.
As I sing the song, I realize that the lyrics describe me and Calum's relationship perfectly. That maybe, when I was writing the song, I was subconsciously writing about Calum.
When the last verse came up, I walked to Calum's mic and looked him straight in the eyes before lowly singing, "How'd we drift so far away, from where we left of yesterday I'm lonely like a castaway.."
Calum's eyes shift from one of mine to the other. The other boys have finished playing but I stay there staring at Calum.
The crowd starts to chant "CAKE CAKE CAKE CAKE." But they couldn't be more wrong. I can tell by the conflicted look in his eyes what this means. I've known him long enough to see that he can't do it. He doesn't want to do it. He's done. Done with the relationship, done with Cake, done with me.
"Okay." Is all I say. I feel my heart break, I love him, I truly do but I know he isn't happy. Neither of us are happy in this relationship.
"I'm sorry." Is all he says, and I believe him. I believe that he's sorry he can't love me.
"It's okay." I say. I know this is what should be happening. I know we can't be together, but it still hurts, and I still feel the need to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out.
I look at Michael and give him a nod before he nods back with a questioning expression. He knows something's wrong. I leave the stage as he starts to talk.
"Thanks everyone, that was amazing. We're going to take a quick 15 minute break, get ourselves situated and we'll be right-"
His voice faded when I finally make it off the stage and run to the restrooms. I push the door open and find a stall to curl up in and just cry.
It's over.
So I'm gonna be doing a couple of Sgfg oneshots because it was requested by @sylviasavannahjaime if you have any request or photoprompts, please and them to me I will gladly write them when I get the chance ☺️
