Always

Chapter 20

Isabelle's pov.
It's been two months living here and I finally feel stable. Like I can make a whole new life here. The baby is healthy and I'm already getting big. At least to me I'm getting big. Deke has been helping me out a lot and hanging out with me. He's still just a friend. I finally feel like I'm ready to move on from Jack. He called me earlier this morning but I just blocked him. It brought up the past but none of my feelings.

"Hey do you want to go get something to eat or am starving right now?" Deke asks me. I get pulled from my thoughts. "You know I do. I'm eating for two." I say. He laughs at me and grabs his car keys. He always helps me into his truck. I think he thinks I'm fragile when I'm carrying around a baby. It makes me smile though. We decided to get some Taco Bell because that's what the baby was wanting me to have and after we eat we headed back to my apartment. He opens all the doors for me and I sit down on the couch and put my legs on his lap. He massages my feet for me. "Why are you so good to me?" I ask him out of no where. "I think everyone should treat you like this. Like a princess." He says. Jack used to call me princess. No Isabelle. You're over him. "Do you want to watch a movie?" Deke asks me. "Of course." I say smiling so big. I cuddle up to him and he turns on the wizard of oz. Knowing it comforts me.

The way this man treats me even when I turned him down. I look up at him and he just smiles. "Are you going to watch the movie or me?" He asks me and laughs. I don't say anything. I just stare at him for a second longer and pull him in to kiss me. I kissed Deke what am I doing. It's just been so long. I kiss him with need and lust. I need him. I need the distraction right now. I climb on top of his lap and grind against him. I can feel him growing under me. It makes me want him more. I keep kissing him this time I ask him for entrance enter his mouth which he grants. But then he takes over. He grabs my hair and tugs it just a little bit which makes me moan.

I forgot what all of this feels like. I throw my head back which makes him start kissing my neck. I take his shirt off and throw it across the room. He then takes mine off and does the same thing. We go back to kissing passionately while he takes my bra off. My boobs are so much bigger since I'm pregnant. He sucks on them and I moan out. He carries me to my bedroom and gently sets me down. He takes my pants off so he has more access to my whole body. Then takes his pants off and he is big. It's been so long and I know it'll hurt. He can see the worry in my eyes. "I'll take it slow." He says to me before he comes back down to kiss me softly and put his length inside of me. I moan out. The pain feels good. It all feels good. He goes slow just like he said he would. But he does it the whole time. Probably careful to not hurt the baby which I appreciate. Once we get done we both lay there panting. "That was nice." He said. I just smiled and played with his fingers. He soon falls asleep but I'm left to my own thoughts.

Knock knock. I hear at my door. Who's knocking at this hour. It's like 1am. I open the door to see him. Why did he come find me. Why is he here. I haven't done on which I'm hoping covers my baby bump. "Jack?" Is all I can mutter out. "Isabelle please let me talk to you. Just five minutes that's all I'm asking for?" I shake my head. This can't be happening right now. "You need to go." I say. He grabs my hand and begs me to talk to him. I look back inside to make sure deke is still sleeping. He is. "Fine. Five minutes." I say as I grab my apartment key and walk out. "Can we go for a walk?" I would but my feet hurt so bad but I can't tell him that or why they hurt. "Um, I can't. I hurt my foot the other day." I said to him. Hoping he would believe me. He always knew when I was lying though. He pulls out a gold bracelet from his pocket. I know exactly what it is. Then pulls out a chip. "I've been sober for two months. I checked myself into rehab the day after you left." He said handing me both the items he pulled out.

My eyes start tearing up. "Jack what are you doing here?" I say to him. Trying to not look him in the eyes. I know as soon as I do I'll fall right back into his trap. I don't want that. I'm happy here. I just slept with Deke. I should be in there with him. "I had to come make sure you were alright. I had to come apologize to you." He says. I just nodded my head. "I'm sorry Isabelle. For everything I put you through. You never deserved any of that. I deserved so much more I understand why you left me. But I got sober. I'm just asking you for another chance. I don't ever want to live without you. I'll always love you bell." He'll always love me? He thinks he can just come here and apologize and everything will be okay. I get mad.