the silence without you is so loud
sometimes i hear my phone vibrate when nobody texts
like those people who feel pain in the limbs they've lost
the ghost of something that isn't there
but will never be gone either
my body is empty of feeling
my head is full of pain
i can make it until the end of the day
until i crawl into bed and stare at the shadows on the wall
they aren't really there
and neither are you
the music in my ears is poisoning me
but it's better than the silence
"talk to me," i'd say to you
"what do you want me to say?" you'd reply
and it never mattered to me what you'd say
it's almost 2am, i should sleep
so i shut my eyes and lie very still
(but i'm afraid of the dark, you remember that)
and I pretend like i can fall asleep
without hearing your voice through the phone
YOU ARE READING
words i never said
Puisisolid ground feels strange under my feet like i've been at sea for a long time and i want to sink back into old habits the places i must never go back to you're not here to stop me my name is nova. these are the words i never said.
