do you remember that night
the night you stayed over to keep me company because you knew i was sad
you brought goldfish because i told you once that i'd never gotten to eat them as a kid
and you hid them under your sweater so my mom wouldn't know
we lay next to each other and you listened to me talk about how lonely i was
and you sighed and told me how much you wanted to find love
and how you had so much love inside of you but nowhere to project it
we watched the streetlight flicker through the raindrops on the window
you said it looked like the creepy porch light from the michael myers movie
we lay there in that comfortable silence that only existed with you
then you told me you'd cut yourself for the first time last week
"i'm too much of a coward to even say it," you'd said
"i got into a fight with the cheese grater," you'd said, and laughed
but it wasn't funny, and you only laughed so you didn't cry
i made you promise to never do it again
but we don't talk anymore, and all i have is the pictures on your instagram account
you've dyed your hair and changed your style
and even though your word doesn't mean much to me anymore
i still wonder if you kept that promise
YOU ARE READING
words i never said
Poëziesolid ground feels strange under my feet like i've been at sea for a long time and i want to sink back into old habits the places i must never go back to you're not here to stop me my name is nova. these are the words i never said.
