Never Totally Content (WIP)

Chapter 14

Ezra's POV:

I am so beyond stupid. I forgot to pack a fucking shirt. Out of all things. And normally I have an emergency sweatshirt but I left that in my car. I didn't know what else to do and I wasn't about to wear my dress. I brought sweatpants and a sweater but I lost the damn sweater and I don't have another shirt! I didn't want to seem like a burden to Asher and ask for a shirt because I thought that might overstep his boundaries. But I wasn't about to waltz around the city in my bra all day. I heard him turn off the shower so I waited about 5 minutes to give him a chance to clothe himself. I knocked and I didn't hear any response so I walked in. And oh my god did I see some things. He was completely naked. I didn't want to be disrespectful and stare but I didn't know how not to. I put my hands over my eyes but I was able to see through a crack between my fingers.
"If you wanna look, you don't have to peek through your fingers. Just don't be weird about it please." he said in a reassuring tone.
I couldn't form words. He had a sun kissed chest along with some more tattoos and a muscular build. It was hard to believe I was living this. I could tell he looked at me the same way I was looking at him. I quickly turned around.
"Not being mean or anything but I would rather you not see me like this."
"Like what? Without a shirt? I'm standing here with my shlong waving at you and you're worried that I might judge your body? That's not me. Let me get some pants on and we can talk."
He put on some boxers and some ripped black jeans and we sat on his bed and talked about things.
"I actually came in here to ask you if you had a shirt for me or something. I lost my sweater I was wearing and I'm not about to put on my dress I was wearing yesterday. I- I didn't want to seem like a burden and I really didn't want to ask but I don't think I had a choice. I'm sorry if I'm overstaying my welcome."
He holds my face between his hands and looks me in the eyes. He then moves his hands down my neck and along my arms. He holds my hands as he speaks.
"You know you can stay as long as you want. And yeah, I can spare a shirt for you. And I want you to learn a lesson from this. Your body does not define you. It's how you show your true colors to others. I don't care if you were tall and slender, short and chunky, or anything in between. I like you for who you are as a human being. I'm not a huge fan of the cookie cutter girls. No one is perfect. That's how the big man upstairs made us. And that's how he made you. Society is feeding you this information that you're not good enough but that's not true. You bring myself, and a lot of other people joy. I walked in the coffee shop when you were working and I had someone tell me that you were quite the charmer. And they were right. You're an amazing human being and I couldn't care less about what you look like. And if someone in your life is judging you on how you look in a negative way, then you don't really need them in your life."
I started crying.
"Oh no don't cry hun. Please, I love you. I'm sorry if I said something wrong."
I looked up at him while wiping my tears.
"You didn't say anything wrong. It was exactly what I needed to hear. And did you mean it when you said you loved me?"
"What's the right answer," he asked as he laughed a little.
"The truth."
"I meant it entirely."
My face was as hot as hades. I felt the exact same way but I wasn't able to form that into words apparently. He had the look of sadness and regret in his face.
"I understand you just got out of a relationship and I shouldn't bother you with this bu-"
I cut him off with a kiss. I just felt like that was the best thing for the moment.
"I couldn't care less about his ass. You're the one I have on my mind," I said as I wrapped my arms around him.
"I love you too."
But now what? I'm making moves on Asher and I still have all of my shit in my apartment, which is right next to Lukas' apartment. I didn't think this through very well. I can't just go back and live there. I mean, my contract was almost up. I would just have to be there for another week. If I could get my family, Asher, and Hailee to help me, I could be completely moved out. But I still don't know where I could go after I pack my stuff. I don't think Asher would enjoy me in his humble abode until I find a place. I don't know. I'll have to ask Lee for an opinion.