secreto de amor . (SLOW UPDATES FR)

chapter 12

you were excited about what happened with connie but you also felt guilty about it. you knew jean was overprotective over you with any guy but because his best friend would be involved, you didn't know how different this would be. you didn't know how to feel about the situation.

but one thing you were sure about was your feelings for connie. he brought some kind of spice in your life and everything with him felt natural, especially when you started to just embrace him as a person overall. maybe you were falling in love but you've been there before and the possibility of going back kinda frightened you.

"whatcha smiling at?" sasha asked while being all up on your phone as you texted connie.

"her man." tia commented, which prompted you to send a death stare her way.

"man? you ain't tell us you had a man? who's the man?" you rolled your eyes before putting your phone down.

"i don't have a man, sasha."

"yet." tia coughed.

"i'll never have a man. especially after what happened with..." you couldn't even really say his name, not like it deserved to be said anyway.

"who?" sasha looked at tia because she knew she'd have the answer.

"her ex." she mumbled and sasha quickly understood.

"but don't be like that! you'll have a man, especially one that's gonna treat you...not like how the other one treated you."

"his name is gonna start with a c and end with an e...he's gonna be funny and fine...he's gonna—"

"t."

"that's very specific."

"girl, we talking about connie!" you immediately shushed tia in case jean was somewhere nearby.

"ohhh! aww~i knew he was talking to somebody new, i didn't think it was you though. cute!"

"we're not a thing."

"they kissed. tongue and everything. sucking each other's faces off—"

sasha gasped. "oh my god...yall fucked?"

"no. just a kiss, calm down."

"you saying that like it's a bad thing. his dick little or something?"

"no, i'd just be surprised if y'all did. you're so soft and quiet and he's...he sells drugs."

"okay, and? money money money~" tia sang.

"he's cool and we kissed so i'm just tryna see if the kiss was a waste of time." it obviously wasn't because it occupied your mind for hours in a day but you just wanted to see if anything would come out of it or if you were just signing an invisible contract to become one of his throw-away hoes.

"evidently not, got you smiling at the phone and shit." you threw a pillow towards tia.

"you got jokes, huh?"

"what's going on in here?" jean came into your room.

"none of your business, why are you in here?"

"to let you know i'm going to the store and if you wanted to come?"

"so it's just fuck us huh?" tia commented and jean narrowed her eyes at her.

"yep. you coming, y/n?" you nodded just to get out the house.

"you're gonna leave us?" sasha stood up from the bed, pouting.

"no, i'll be back. just take care of the house."

you and jean went to the store to get more groceries because it was the first time since he's been back.

you two were walking down snack aisle when you thought you saw connie with some girl and eventually you were sure it was him. they were laughing, giggling, and touching all up on each other and your heart felt like it was breaking into a million pieces. it showed on your face and jean picked up on your energy shift.

"hey, what's wrong? you don't like chocolate chip?" jean asked innocently as he held up a box of chocolate chip cookies.

"i'm okay. what else do we need to get?" you tried to shake the scene off but you couldn't.

"umm...that's it. you sure you okay?"

"yeah, can we leave now?"

"of course." he nodded. the only time you rushed him was if something was really wrong or you didn't wanna be somewhere so he understood. on the ride back, he did have questions but he knew not to bother you if you looked upset. so when you finally got home you went straight to your room but forgot sasha and tia were still there.

"what's wrong? what happened at the store?" you shook your head but sasha and tia looked at each other, knowing something was wrong.

"you saw connie?" tia whispered. you were quiet so that gave away your answer. "don't tell me he was with another bitch bruh..." you were quiet again.

"i'm sorry y/n...i can talk to him if you want. this might all be a big misunderstanding." sasha rubbed your leg. you didn't feel like crying or anything, you were just mad. his lil kiss started to get you into feelings you were kinda excited for but then he goes and have another bitch in his face? yeah you knew it was a waste of time.

"it is what it is," you shrugged. "i just don't think he's for me."

"don't give up! maybe it was a cousin you saw him with or something." tia side-eyed sasha.

"be forreal."

"it didn't look like a cousin. the way they were all up on each other."

"were they kissing?" you shook your head. "at least that's good."

"yeah i just need to take a step back."

"a few steps all the way back." tia's comment made you and sasha giggle before you all talked some more. after a few more minutes, tia and sasha ended up leaving and jean was knocking on your door.

"come in!"

"hey, you okay? you looked pretty upset earlier." jean came in and sat on your bed.

"i'm fine. just a mood swing or something." jean knew you were lying and was battling in his head whether or not he should ask you what he really wants to ask you.

"okay...i just have a question," you didn't look at him but was silent just to listen to him. "what's up with you and connie?" your heart sank again but you couldn't explain why if there's truthfully nothing going on, at least not anymore.

"nothing. why?"

"i overheard yall talking about him. i just wanted to ask you just in case i misheard or whatever."

"we kissed but we're not dating or anything." jean had to admit he was a bit bothered by what you told him but his priority was with you, not connie.

"okay then, just...i don't want you getting hurt. i want your heart and mind protected and honestly, connie is not gonna be the one to do that for you. he's my best friend and all and we're cool but, you will always come first. i'll always be on your side, understood?" you nodded in confirmation. luckily you hadn't gotten that far with connie for anything to change. you hoped that outside of you, him and jean would still be friends because you didn't wanna ruin anything for your brother.