After the finale (Angelhusk)

Clarifications

"Ehm ehm" - I clear my throat to let him know I'm there - "How's it going?"

"Well, why are you asking?"- he replies

Why? What means why...don't tell me he doesn't remember anything from last night

"No you know I just wanted to know, a question like the others... have you recovered from yesterday? You drank quite a bit and..."

"Husk if you want to talk about what we did yesterday you can tell me without beating around the bush"

Fuck

"So you remember?"- I blush, but on the other hand I'm happy that he remembers

"HAHAHAH of course I remember"

"Well. Um... I think we should talk about it."

"Relax husky, there's nothing to talk about: we were both drunk and horny, it happens"

"It happens?" I ask, dazed

"YES AHAHAH you don't know how many times I end up in bed with random people! Well and if we want to be honest it was just a couple of foreplays, nothing more"

"Random people?!"- I start to get nervous

"Come on, you know what I mean, whiskers, don't get excited"

I look at him in amazement, I was just one of many.I fall silent.

"Huskkk?" - calls my attention - "Come on, don't be upset, you will have other opportunities to use this body"

"But do you even hear yourself when you speak?" I blurt out. "Using this body...is this what you felt last night?"

"What do you mean?"- he asks confused

"I didn't use you, it was you who begged me to give you more" - I say in a serious tone - "I respected the limits I had set for myself, I didn't use you"

"Pfff and what would your limits have been? It doesn't seem to me that yesterday you were very fussy about what to do" - he says in a provocative tone

"Forget it, apparently a little slut like you just don't get it" - I feel discouraged

He looks at me angry, melancholic; I hurt him, I wish I could take back what I said. He walks towards the door.

"Angel I...I didn't mean it" - I try to justify myself

"Oh no I understand, the old philosopher bartender always has to remind you why you're not up to par"

"Angel I didn't really mean it, what you said just bothered me"

"Of course not!"- he says ironically - "Since my presence bothers you so much, next time go suck someone else's cock" - he tells me, turning his back and giving me the middle finger

Come on Husk, it's your only chance to make things clear

"No, I'm not like that!"

Silence falls, we look into each other's eyes for a few seconds; I lower my gaze and continue:

"I don't go to bed with anyone." - I say in a firm voice - "And it hurts me that you think this, that for you it was just this"

He looks at me -"What?"

*(references to episode 4, season 1)*

"I...I thought you had given me clear signs" - I feel my heart beating wildly -"Yes in short...I was convinced...after that evening at the club...that there was something between us"

I feel my eyes filled with tears, I don't know where I found the courage to speak.Angel looks at me without saying a word.I feel my heart in my mouth.

"Husk.."

"You know what Angel, forget it, it doesn't matter! This was all a huge mistake" - I start to leave, but I feel his hand grab my arm, stopping me.

"Please stay" – his voice has never been so serious

I remain silent, I let him speak, but not a single word comes out of his mouth.

"AAAA... FUCK" - he screams - "Why does everything have to be so difficult"

I remain silent, giving him time to explain

"Husk, you're my best friend in this shitty place and I don't want to ruin everything... even if maybe it's too late" - he says sobbing

"No Angel, you haven't ruined anything, I'm just very confused..and angry, BUT NOT WITH YOU...I...I just need time to clear my head"-I say heading to the counter

Angel wipes his tears and leaves shortly after, probably to go to work.