Yours

Shes back.

My skin was already bleeding, it burned, but I kept scrubbing. I could still feel his hands on me, I just wanted him off. I reassured myself he's gone, he is gone and he's not going to come back.
After the shower my arms were fucked up. I just laid in bed. I skipped school yesterday and I did today as well. I haven't talked to anyone recently. Everything feels like a waste really, I'm going to die eventually so why even try? I looked over at my desk, Homework that was overdue. Even after everything I missed Lilian. I know what she did, and it hurts to even think about it. But I'm in love with someone who's taken. Ash is never going to be with me... But what if-? No let's be logical I see how he is with Rose, I just went to bed to avoid anymore thoughts.
I skipped the next day
I skipped the next too
Until I finally was forced to go back, I got myself up, one look in the mirror and I didn't even recognize myself, my hair was a mess but when it was straightened it looked like how it did that night, I couldn't even stand myself anymore. I grabbed some scissors and cut some curtain bangs which kinda suited me and I dyed them pink. Which I didn't know how to feel about it exactly but the dye will clear over the next month.
     I put on some jeans and a crop top, I honestly didn't even care if they dress coded me at the moment. I was cold but I didn't have any jackets Clean, the only jacket clean being Lilian's. It's either that or freeze to death Anna I take the jacket and deal with it.
Of course Lilian was a the bus stop, "Awww wearing my jacket? Knew you would come around again" "Shut up Lilian." "Hmmm I don't think I will" and she wrapped an arm around me but I backed off, "Go bother Bella" "I think I would rather bother you" "Should have thought about it before taking her to your bed" and I smiled at her. "I could take you though" "No." "Loser" "Ugly ass bitch" "Hey be nice!" "Why would i be nice?" "Cause I'm your girlfrienddddd" "Hell no." "you will change your mind eventually." "Don't count on it."

"Damn I thought you didn't get high-" Isa was in front of me, "Desperate times call for desperate measures" Isa was a stoner, and if I was going to get high with anyone it would be her. We are good friends, "Damn haven't seen you like this in a while- it's like that time you cut your hair short and dyed it red. Damn that was a fun time though!" I could hardly breathe it's been a while- "Oh God don't remind me-" "okay but seriously, I know your getting bad. Who cuts their hair and dye's it, then stops going to school and even when she does she skip's classes and gets high" she had a pretty fair point there.

Im not thinking straight, I'm In the hallway heading home soon. You could smell the smoke on Lilian's jacket, I was really tired. But I saw Lilian and I couldn't really control anything I was doing, she took me to her house so my mom wouldn't kill me. I was sitting on her bed, and she had put me on her lap. She kissed me and the rest of the night went on.

Lilian your not the one I love.