Just one muffin. Mom won't even know and having just one of these fluffy, delicious muffins isn't going to crack the earth open. I have a feeling that if I resist anymore, I might just starve myself to death.
I feel her presence before she holds my arm in a painful grip and yanks me away to a quiet corner.
"What did I tell you about the food here, Aurora?"
the calm rage in her voice makes my heart thunder.
"Mama, it was just one-" ,
I feel the searing sting of her palm on my cheek and I know my eyes are already brimming with tears I can't stop.
"Mama I was hungry- " slap.
"Mama please..." slap.
"Don't you dare cry. Don't you dare make a damn noise. And if you feel like eating that junk again, remember the consequences."
I watch her walk away as the tears blur my vision, my lips quivering but not even making a hint of sound. I watch as she holds a baby who I think is probably no more than three years old and press a kiss to its little hand and I wonder what I did to not deserve that.
I jolt awake and check the time.
01:44 AM.
I did not expect my brain to unlock that one memory I try so hard to bury since I was 10. Breathing hard, I stare at the ceiling, furious at my subconscious for being so cruel.
The usual gentle glow of moonlight does absolutely nothing to calm my racing heart. And so I burst into tears, again. I weep and weep into my pillow, when all I want is to scream. At my brain for not letting me sleep, for not letting me have this one chance of escaping everything, at my mother, at myself, at this curse of a life.
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The chaos of mending hearts
Cerita PendekAurora doesn't know how to live anymore, all her dreams and joy buried beneath the hatred of her mom. But what will happen, when she finally finds the courage to speak up to her ever-furious mother? will it be for the better or for the worse?
