My Eating Disorder

2.3.24

Ok sooo I went out and got:
- Coca Cola Zero
- Coca Cola Zero vanilla
- Coca Cola Zero cherry
- Sugar free chewing gum
- lentil cakes (?) (kind of like rice cakes)
- "sugar free" strawberry jam
- white monster
- and some "supplements" for weightloss

Let's go
I'm actually quite excited
I want to loose weight again
Like I did in October
I miss my lw (which wasn't even that low compared to others but still )

So far I've consumed 255 cals
I regret the protein drink because it was 208 cals and it actually made me hungry aka I started craving food
But I just drank some Diet Coke and that stopped it
I'm so glad that I have the things now

I haven't weighted myself since yesterday at 2am
So my last stats are 82.1kg
The scale is kind of broken so it's never really accurate
Which could demotivate me if it says a high number
So I won't weight myself until tomorrow morning atleast
Because I also drank and ate already which means I'd weight more
I don't want to discourage myself
Maybe if I don't binge I won't weight myself until Monday morning
And I hope that I'll be at 79.9kg or something on Monday
I CAN DO THIS
Fighting💪

I'm nauseous af

My plan for now is to only drink Diet Coke and take the supplements
And if o get like reallyyy hungry I'll eat a rice cake (it's not the right name but I don't care) with some strawberry jam aka jelly

The day is over and my intake is at 262 cals
I really do regret the protein drink
Without it, I'd be at under 100 cals
Whatever
I burned 197.8 cals in steps
And 1.701 cals in resting energy
So I'm definetly in a deficit