THE FUNDAMENTALS OF A REALIST

the edge of sanity

"love blossoms like a newborn rose"

and

I would do anything to hear that laugh again
To see that metallic smile spread across your face
To be the raw passion in your irises
To admire the utter fullness of your facade

But my skeletal arms wasn't long enough
I couldn't hold you strong enough
You were always on the move
Left me alone and stuff
In your company I held back tears somehow
How could you not understand when you know how shit been rough

I would give anything for his touch
The aroma of his inscriptive cologne
The diagonal arch in his eyebrows
The satisfaction in his voice was never too much

But I wasn't spontaneous to you
My life became simultaneous and askew
I couldn't escape this maze I was subdued
I was watering a dead plant hoping one day it grew

Why did I never recognize how you could be so clever
I was a strong believer in nothing last forever
But that died when you told me I was the only one to make you feel better.
Maybe I should have been wetter

Or fed up
You geeked my head up
Suddenly time sped up
Emptied my red cup until I bleed dead sups

Sorry 's are waterproof bandaids they still fade

They told me wait a week
They told me weight it out
But it didn't pay to doubt
Bitterness created a babe
A grouch
I was shading
I was fading out

They ask me was I ok a million times
And after the trillionth time I was getting back in line

So don't ask me how I lost my mind

//e.b.