Its embarrassing that I have to be constantly reminded that you left me as if I have no knowledge of it happening
I just needed a reason to believe again, a reason to hold on, and that's exactly what you gave me
Now Im back where I started, the uneasy feeling that you are on you way
The pause in my chest when you text me
The disbelief that you could still want me
Every time I encounter you I pity myself for being so easy to use, so predictable
You know I will never deny you
You know I would do anything to keep you around
You are the same person who made me your girlfriend and ditched me to be with the proclaimed love of you life
Nothing has changed
You are still a coward
You are still a liar and I am still blunt
The rawness of my speech is intimidatingly bias to bullshit
I need to calm down again before I fall in love with my oppressor
Before my status becomes any lesser
//e.b.
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THE FUNDAMENTALS OF A REALIST
PoetryA collection of my thoughts in poems that reflects my life before, after, and during being associated with my first love as well as my creative impulses. a poetic photograph of May 2015- October 2015. ***BEWARE PROFANITY***
