THE FUNDAMENTALS OF A REALIST

Caged Bird

I was always the caged bird that could sing

The skinny girl who could bring
such uniqueness to little things

Like the style of my hair
or why I don't care
about the opinion of others

They wonder how can a girl raise herself with an abusive mother

How can one conceal an entire life of bruises
and continue to be this idea you are aquainted with
and learned to know

Honorable and reserved she doesn't speak much
But when she does "Oh how she blow"

And they can analyze all of this...
Why couldn't anyone hear my cry when I needed them to

When I couldn't bear unhappiness any longer
When I was tired of holding the world upon my shoulders
When I couldn't sustain this artificial image that everybody wanted me to
be because I didn't create it

I am a product of a responsibility everybody wanted to contribute to but didn't have the courage to stick around for the outcome

A group project where only one person did the work but everybody put their name on the paper
A village that raised a child

But when I was suffering from depression
My fate was always at the hands of what somebody else wanted
But if I killed myself I was the only one in control of that decision

I learned that people can do all they can to a person and then be able to go home

And you can't
because you're already there
You have to live in this body
There is no release  until death do you part
And I only wanted to die when I didn't have anymore room for people to fuck up my life
And tell me what's wrong and whats right

Its easy to fuck up when you're always expected to do the right thing
Reality could sting,
if I don't have the potential to fly why did God give me wings

Our endings like our beginnings are both out of our control
I been jumping from pillow to pole
Since I was 15 years old

Now I began living my life for me
And not the majority vote
Shit got real when it wasn't enough sugar to coat

It is said that the art of knowing is knowing what to ignore
If you 're life is based off of meeting the requirements of someone else who are you living for.

We all made mistakes and some of us are punished for ours while others continue living their lives carelessly.

And I chose to take responsibility for the actions and mistakes of grown ass people who don't want to see anybody doing better than them.
//e.b.