Sometimes I think that my life could easily be changed into a TV show.
So many crazy things happen that I can barely keep track of it all.
I guess that's part of why I love writing so much it helps me keep track of the things that happen to me.
To be honest any story you see that I've written the foundation of it is made out of things that have really happened to me in real life.
I have so many characters in my books that are based off of real people it's honestly crazy.
I've always loved writing songs as well so sometimes it feels good to write a son about something that happens to me, when I first write it, it usually doesn't get any real structure of verses and a chorus.
A bunch of lyrics go through my head and I instantly type them up on my iPad or iPod then I later think about what kind of tune I want them to have.
And that's pretty much my songwriting process.
At the mowing I'm writing a song about if I had the nerve to talk to my crush what would I say to him, and then because I'm a scheming witch I'll find a way for him to end up listening to it by accident... But it has to be PERFECT before I'm okay with him reading it.
On Thursday night I couldn't get to sleep beacause of how much I was thinking about him and this is where this section of the situation came into it.
I sent him a messge that went a little but like this...
I've been deciding whether to write this message for about half a week now but after French today I knew I had to because all the memories came flooding back and I know that the only way to get over it is to tell the truth.
My friend told me the truth about what happened when she asked not what you asked her to say and the message that she sent to you, I wrote for her to send and she sent me the reply.
You don't have to reply to this if you don't want to I'm only sending this for closure on the situation.
I guess the best I could've hoped for with that message is a hug but it was a stupid idea I promise after this I won't get my friend to contact you again and I won't myself either 😁 if you actually read on this far without thinking of me as pathetic thanks 😢
Sorry that I'm sending this really late at night I can't get to sleep 😪
So yeah just from that you can tell that a lot of drama has been going down since halfway through May.
I think when it all started was when I finally admitted to myself that he was my crush and that I like him.
So for some dumb reason I decided to start writing a blogpost on my iPod sat next to him where it says SAT NEXT TO MY CRUSH and about two weeks later I found out that he rea fit while I wrote it.
So yeah he knew but he didn't say anything.
For a post explaining the whole story just let me know and I write it
Thanks for reading my blog xoxoxo lolazingchick
