That moment when you question every decision you've ever made.
That moment when you walk round the school tears streaming down your face because your fed up with trying so hard.
To get her to like you, to be perfect it's fucking hard.
If i could say absolutely anything to her I would say I'm not a perfect princess like you are I can't keep concentration on a piece of work for much more than a minute but that doesnt mean I should be made to feel like I'm not good enough.
Every single time I try to do work in lessons it feels like a waste, the work is never good enough for the teacher, because I'm never good enough for anyone!!
On top of that I had English next, I was still crying when I got into the lesson and obviously people were going to ask why, but I didn't think they would ask the way there did? They wouldn't leave me alone they kept asking and asking me over and over again until I just gave up, I had to say something before they made me scream.
all I said was someone asked me why I skipped a lesson and we ended up talking about my opinions on the school system.
That's literally all I said by then they asked me who and I kept saying no I'm not telling because that would make it worse but they broke me and I told them and they promised not to tell anyone but they clearly lied because at the end she came up to me and asked me why I'm telling everyone that she shouted at me but she didn't shout at me I think the reason it made me so upset is because I think she's right, and I'm wrong and it's just so overwhelming to think about replanning my entire like 😭
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