I've decided to change my life, no more toxic friendships and relationships I'm a new person than i was before i steeped into that life style, I've finally reached the end of that chapter of my life and that book I'm going to finish writing about, this is where it ends and Im ready to start fresh.
but here are the rules i will live by:
1. if someone is being fake or becoming a toxic friend, END IT
2. DO NOT go back to real life rosie
3. stay close to true friends like amazing evie and Liwiaa1112 and Hana_Greys14
so yes my toxic life is over, and looking back it was a massive mistake lasting from may to january, it not that the main person in it was toxic it was that all her other friends are toxic because who refuses to read a measly 300 words because they can't be bothered when it could've fixed all of the problems they have, who decides they don't like someone because they aren't perfect, who tells someone that they need to sort themselves out and then when they decide to still don't like them and still walks away when they are trying to explain themselves, who makes the same mistakes over and over again and never learns, who throws every attempt to be friends with her i have made back in my face and tell me that i don't try and especially who makes their BEST FREIND CHOOSE!!!!!!!!!!! she does, and i wish i could do something about it but i can't and that really irritates me, she did it with the girl that came before me and to me and she is going to do it to the next driving people away by making people feel terrible about themselves because i know she did hat to me and here i am trying to work on fixing the damage she and someone else has done to me and my mental health.
so the reason this toxic lifestyle is over is because of her, she is the one person on this planet that i hate the most she made me hate myself and now i am stuck trying to undo what she has done with the help of my three best friends which i why I've decided to start something new, I've always wondered what it feels like to be a leader and to be surround with my closest friends without a toxic person in sight which is why I've decided to make that happen, i want to be like my friend, i want to have amazing people around me, and i know that they don't know each other that well but they can get to know each other and i will personally make sure that happens and i know what it feels like to be the one that always gets left out and i know what it feels like to get left behind so i will make sure that that never happens to anyone but anyway, thing by thing i am going to work at improving myself because as much as i hate her she has a point, i thought i had it all figured out but i don't but as long as i keep an open mind to change everything should be ok, i got my report and my grades are pretty bad so in the subjects that matter so i am going to change that by getting the work done in english art and drama because i am a drama llama because tbh everywhere i go drama follows
thanks for reading my blog xxsamhirdxx
