Blurred | King of Hartz

7: Memories

                                        𝘚𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘪 𝘙𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯

                                           
I took a sip from my wine glass as I stared at the photo album. I grazed my fingernails against my mother's written words. I gulped sitting the glass down and finally flipping it open. It's been over 10 years since I've last opened this. I was afraid of splitting open old wounds.

I looked at the first picture as a smile came to my face. It was a photo of me, my oldest two brothers and my sister. We were all hugged up inside the wave pool at a water park we went to frequently. I was finally tall enough to ride the rides that day.

I looked over at the other pictures and the short description my mom wrote alongside each one of them. There were a few pictures of me smiling toothless holding up my honor roll certificate from elementary school. A few photos of me and my siblings causing havoc. Without even realizing, the tears made a entrance.

"I miss y'all" I whispered as the tears clouded my vision. I quickly closed the book not wanting to see pictures of my father or my teenage years. I hugged the book wishing they all were still here with me. I miss my brothers overprotectiveness and sneaking in my sisters closet. I miss when we all would cook in the kitchen together or play outside with water guns.

Through the hurts and lies my father put my mother through, she never allowed us to not have fun. To never see her cry when she was hurting. She made sure our childhood was one we would never forget.

My mind drifted back to night with Silas and how vulnerable I allowed myself to be. I wasn't usually open when it came to talking about my family and what happened to him. I was so close to spilling my whole life story to a man that shared the same hurt of loosing someone close to him.

My phone started ringing pulling me out of my sunken thoughts. I tucked my bottom lip between my teeth as I stared at my grams calling me. I pressed accept, putting the phone on speaker.

"Put that wine down and come get me" immediately I let out a laugh wiping the last fallen tears from my face.

"Who says I wanna go out with you" I reached over and sat my glass down.

"What you younglings say, I'm high vibrational" I smiled laughing.

"Please stop following them young girls up at the salon"

"Come scoop me up girl while my curls are still fresh, tryna find me a sugar daddy"

"Ew I'm hanging up" she started laughing as I shook my head. Once I hung up I was back in the confines of silence, trapped in my sunken thoughts risking to take me down memory lane. Thoughts I buried so long ago. I got up from my couch taking my glass with me.

"To Kennedy, Amir, Mateo, and Mom. Toast to y'all" I stared at the picture sitting on my mantel as drowned back the rest of my wine.

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"I told you to stop falling asleep when getting your brows done"

"Grams" I exclaimed as ennessey started laughing.

"Don't Grams me, your left brow looks neutral and the other is giving shocked" I sucked my teeth as she started laughing. I made the mistake of going to someone else and she ended up arching one brow higher than the other.