Nobody But You - Walker Scobell

eight ~ the planeఌ

chapter eight
september 27th, 2023

jaylee pov
(lowercase intended)

tw ~ sensitivity, depressed actions

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ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED were the only words that i could think about right now. i never fell asleep with walker in my room because of my overthinking. unfortunately our flight was literally at 11:30.

i mean it's better than a 3am flight, but i was up all day and now had no sleep for a 3 hour flight. what's the problem, you might ask? i could just sleep on the plane right? loud incorrect buzzer. i could never sleep on planes.

i look down at walker who had cuddled closer to me while he was sleeping. i admired his seemingly perfect features. after our conversation last night, i saw him differently. he was practically glowing in my eyes now. it was very unusual.

i ruffled his curls gently and he groaned and flipped over to his other side.

"walker you have to wake up, our flight leaves in 2 hours. we have to get to the airport sleepy head." he groans again but in a cute morning voice. i blush profusely. oh no.

i got up off the bed and turned on the lights. "ride and shine pretty boy!" he threw his pillow over his face as he whined. i chuckled at him dramatic actions.

i walked back over to the bed and laid down on top of him. i relaxed, putting my entire body weight on him.

"princess get off of me!" he started lightly hitting my shoulder. i sighed dramatically and teased him more.

"this is a bit of a bumpy mattress, might have to return it." i say, shifting my weight around. he playfully scoffs.

"princess please have mercy on me! i can't breathe pretty girl!" i completely ignored the nickname, though under other circumstances i would've started fumbling my words.

i quickly got off of him and cleared my throat. i went into my closet to grab a sweatshirt for the airport, along with black nike pros, tall white nike socks and crocs. i feel walkers glare on my back as he stands up.

"did i say something wrong?" i turn around to face him, trying to cover my sad expression.

"yeah, im okay walker." i say calmly. it took everything in me to not let a tear fall. he said he couldn't breathe. i know he didn't mean that i was fat. i knew that. but i was always insecure about it anyways. maybe i was being overly sensitive? i don't know.

"in no way did i say that to insinuate that you were fat. you are so far from fat." he came up and hugged me tightly. i hugged him back, burrowing my face into his warm chest.

"im sorry i always take things so personal walk. i dont know what's wrong with me." i finally let quiet tears slip from my eyes. "im sorry." i whispered.

he caressed the back of my head while whispering sweet affirmations to me. i hated being this sensitive. although, i don't know why but i always felt safe around walker and just let every pent up emotion out to him. he always listened too. never made fun of me. i could never thank him enough for that.

"let's catch that plane princess. we i'll talk more when we take off, yeah?" you smiled softly as he cupped your face, gently wiping your tears with his thumbs. you nod and you walk out the door the meet the others.

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walker pov

MY MIND was betraying me. so was mt brain. hell, my whole existence was betraying me if that was even possible.

i was sitting next to jay on the plane and her leg was bouncing up and down furiously. i was debating on whether or not i should put my hand on her leg or not. i don't know, it seemed like too much for us at the time.

though it kept shaking and shaking. i felt so bad. i hated seeing her so anxious and stressed. it made my chest hurt. and i didn't know why.

i finally just said fuck it and i rested my hand on her knee, rubbing my thumb back and forth in a comforting manor. she opened her mouth but didn't say anything. her leg didn't stop shaking either.

"princess. i'm worried about you." my voice betrayed me. you could hear the worry in my voice from a mile away. i looked into her eyes and my heart skipped. fuck.

i had always wanted to get close to jay but never acted on it. she was so pretty it was intimidating. i was terrified to talk to her until leah said something. but that was irrelevant right now.

what was relevant was that i was falling for her. quickly, at that. i think ive always had a thing for her ever since i met her, but i never acted on it. she was perfect and i was far from it.

"if you want to tell me what's wrong then i'll listen no matter what. but i understand if you don't want to tell me." she started to fidget with her fingers and i gave more reassuring rubs to her knee. good lord her skin was so soft.

"life doesn't feel real." she murmured. i said nothing , just wanting to let her get whatever she wanted off her chest. "with tess gone, i just can't wrap my head around anything anymore. why am i walking? what do i talk? why do i have arms and legs?" she swallows and takes a deep breath. i squeeze her leg to try and help.

"i don't like myself anymore walker." she paused for a brief moment. "no. i take that back. i do like myself. but with all the shitty things that have happened in my life.." she trails off. i give small words of encouragement.

"i'm not up to the beauty standard. guys hate me because i won't put out. i let people walk all over me. i apologise for no reason. girls hate me for no reason, and im never good enough." she laughs uncomfortably.

"that is so far from the truth. anyone who thinks you aren't pretty is an asshole. they're jealous of you. and princess you have to stand up for yourself. you're letting yourself get hurt by letting people get into your head. that's your biggest mistake." i take my hand off her knee and wipe a single tear off of her cheek.

"you're perfect, i don't care what you think." she looks down at her lap and i get nervous. did i go to far?

"you've barely just begun to know me though. how can you be so sure?" she sounds so unconfident. my heart hurt for her.

"because, princess. i know you more than you think i do. i see things you don't see. and it hurts how lowly you veiw yourself."

"i'm not worth your time, walker." now i was completely furious.

"no. you will never say that again, understand? you are so important to me regardless of how long we have or haven't known each other. you will always, and i mean ALWAYS, be worth my time." she looked back up to meet my eyes gazing at her. she looked hurt, but also taken aback. i was probably making this so obvious. i need to hold back.

"thank you." she whispered and lay her head on my shoulder. i stiffened for a millisecond before relaxing and playing with her hair.

what was i going to do..?

skye <3

i lowk don't like this chapter but whatever

i'm fw another sophmore. someone help me

anyways.. chapter 9 might suck but it'll get better after chapter 12 🤗

bye my lovelies! 🩷

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