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MICKAYLA
FEBRUARY 11
10:00pm

Me nuh know why Kevon suh distant nowadays eno. He comes here when he wants to and barely spends the night. He's also always on the phone, accepting calls and texting. Maybe him a cheat.

No comment.

It's worrying though. Maybe he's fallen out of love with me and just nuh know how fi tell me.

Still no comment.

Just as I'm about to text him, he steps into my room. No knocking, no nothing.

"If you're not here to stay or pay me any attention, leave. Valentine's Day a come up and unuh man nuh know when fi tell woman seh unuh naah give them nothing and sekkle" I snap at him. He just looks at me like I'm crazy.

"Yuh think me naah give yuh nothing fi Valentine's Day? Yuh think money adi problem? Come on Mikayla" he rolls his eyes at me.

Yuh man sassy yf.

"Then why are you so distant? You barely come here, barely spend the night and when you do you're on the phone. When you're accepting calls you go in the bathroom. What's happening?" I can see him restraining himself from telling me. Yeah man a it this. Bun a kill me.

"The way how yuh put it mek it sound like me a cheat pan yuh, which I'm not. I'm a working man and my sister just came back home. She needs her big brother" I didn't believe him.

"The phone calls? The late night messages?" I prod at him.

"Yow. Sometimes it's not good fi know everything" he exclaims.

Jealousy burns through my veins as I imagine someone else getting what I'm supposed to- his time, his effort, his warmth.

"So this is it? You're willing to throw everything away? Wah happen to starting over?"

Stop push it.

"Yaah talk like we a leff, we aren't. Yuh jussa od and yuh need time" he leaves my room, hissing his teeth and slamming the door.

I sigh, leaning back in my bed. I can't help but feel like my assumptions are wrong. Even though Junior has a past, I don't think he'd cheat on me.

Delulu is the solulu.

I close my eyes, welcoming the sleep that my body so needed.

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                                      JUNIOR

Micheal is in the couch with his headsets on

I hiss my teeth, slamming the door behind me. Deh likkle girl yah a mek ut hard fi me surprise her eno.

Everything stress her out and mek her insecure. I'm hers until she doesn't want me anymore and it's like she hard fi see that.

She keeps bringing up the phone calls at night but it's the owner of the venue that Kenya chose, asking questions here and there. The messages are from Kenya and the owner also, it's a group chat. Still, I couldn't ruin the surprise by answering the phone next to her.

I leave at nights when I know my sister isn't herself and she's at home. She has nightmares and I make sure I'm there for her. The nights when she's by her boyfriend, I spend with Kayla.

She literally has nothing to worry about.

I'm at aunty Claudette's front gate, putting in the password and getting in. I use my key to open the door, taking my time to go up to my room.