Halam'shivanas:The sweet sacrifice of duty

The right thing to do

The inquisitor was a mystery to him; she was not what he had expected. She had shown wisdom he thought had been lost to this world a long time
A dalish elf, alive here and now and yet it almost seemed like she could have been from the ancient time.
She reminded him of water, furious and terrifying towards her enemies, gentle and life bringing towards the people in need. After the incident at Haven had the people started to gather around her, like animals gathering around an oasis in the desert. She had again and again proved her worth and showed that she was here to change things. But never had she taken all the credit or put herself above anyone. She was more than happy to share the spotlight with her friends and the inquisition.

Sometimes it annoyed him that she acted differently from how he expected.

She even made him doubted himself and his view of the dalish. More than often did it feel like she knew everything and understood everything in the world.
It was almost like those clear blue eyes could see into you and your very being.
She often visited him to ask about things, she had said that she respected him.
It had made Solas feel a sting of guilt; he almost wished that he could reveal everything to her.
Before he had realised, had his reason to keeping his secrets as secrets changed.
Now it was more out of fear of losing her than anything else. She might be forgiving and understanding but this was probably too much, even for her.
It was with both sorrow and happiness he watched her move forward, getting closer and closer to the final battle.
He knew that however it would end it would end with a goodbye.
They could had been together; if they had met in another time, or another world ...

But there is no point in wishing for something that could never happen. All he could do was to slowly step away and let her go. Let her find someone who could be with her, who could give her anything she needed and everything she was worth.

Even if Solas knew it was the right thing to do, but not the easiest.

Just the thought of her in someone else's embrace made him feel a sick angry feeling. The thought that she would call someone else's name with love in her voice made him unable to breathe. But he knew that when the time comes he would do the right thing, because she was worth it.