Halam'shivanas:The sweet sacrifice of duty

Eye to eye

Dragon age trespasser spoiler warning i guess
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Everything happened in slow motion, the magic bolt had left his hand but never reached its intended target. Solas could not breathe as he saw how Lavellan, the love of his life absorbed the hit. Her scream echoed in the big stone room together with the sound of flaring magic tearing away flesh.

Her limp body crashed against his and stained his clothes with blood. She collapsed on the floor next to his feet. Slowly he looked down and met her eyes. The light in them was dying but a brilliant smile was on her lips. A shaking hand reached up but fell down by her side and left a trail of blood on the floor.

"I...i...will always love you.... Don't forget ....i believe.....in...yo..."

Her voice that once had been clear and strong ebbed out and died together with the light in her eyes and the strength in his body. He fell down on his knees and fumbled as he reached for her. Her now loose hair felt like cold silk against his warm hand.

Solas was about to pull her closer, to cry in her hair when a rough hand shoved him away without a care.

A group of people rushed to the body's side and sorrow screams echoed together with anger.

It was first now he remembered that they were not alone. He was still on the ground when the former knight captain and commander lifted up Lavellan's body.

Cassandra cried as she closed Lavella's eyes and between sobbing and tears chanted for her spirit and body.

" YOU.... You .... I should kill you for this! But I wont go back on my words to her." The anger and pain were crystal clear in Cullen's voice. His eyes burned from tears he held back and his hand pressed her body close to him.

Solas felt a sting of jealous now off all times, how close were the commander and his vhenan?

" Don't Solas. Not now, not ever. " The boy once spirit of compassion said slowly as he held Lavellan's pale hand and gently stroke it.

The group of people now surrounded the commander and the body, forming a shield against him.

" Let me at him, I will tear his ears off." The elven archer spitted out and readied her bow.

" Don't buttecup, remember what she said ..... remember her wish. " Varric said and held back her hand.

The threat did not reach Solas as he focused on his vhenan. Her facial expression was frozen in a smile. She almost looked alive, sleeping peacefully.

" Leave, do not even think about coming close to her again. We will stop you, I promise you that." Vivienne said with a cold and cutting voice. Her sorrow did not show but she drowned inside.

Solas watched as the group of people he once called companion left with together with his heart. He was left alone in the stone room, together with echoes of what had happened. Together with the realization that everything was his fault.

Was he doing the right thing? Was there really no other way?