Nothing to Everything

8: What The Hell Just Happened

Author's Note: Smut in this chapter

JJ and I entered the jet and I made a bee line towards my dad. I was safe if I sat near him. I felt Hotch's eyes on me as I sat down. My dad and Spencer were already playing chess like they did most flights. I tried to pay attention to their game, but my mind was too hectic. I decided to try and nap since I was still tired. I laid my head on my dad's shoulder and proceeded to fall asleep.

I woke up to the plane descending. We had the next couple of days off since the case had taken so long. Once we got to the airstrip I jumped in my car and left before anyone could talk to me. I was insanely happy I had decided to drive to the airstrip myself at the beginning of this case. I called my mom to let her know I was going to stay at Frank's. I just needed to be alone. I couldn't stop thinking about my conversations with Emily and Hotch. They were so similar and full of emotion, their eyes when they thought back to the case were exactly the same. I couldn't stop seeing the similarities. Before I knew it the day was done and I was in bed.

Frank: I'm coming to Virginia, will be there tomorrow around noon. Just wanted to let you know so you don't freak when the door opens.

Me: Is this because of me or work?

Frank: both.

I fell asleep excited to see Frank. He always knew how to make me feel better. ——————————————————————————————————————————I woke up at 10:30am and couldn't fall back asleep from being so excited. I desperately needed a Frank hug. I got dressed and went to make myself food. I was sitting at the counter finishing my breakfast when I got the notification that someone arrived at the house. By the time the door actually opened I was standing in front of it waiting to jump in Frank's arms. He was expecting it so as soon as he opened the door he held his arms open and secured himself so I wouldn't make both of us fall. I stayed in his arms for what seemed like forever. He held me while petting my hair to comfort me and didn't stop until I pulled back. He got settled then sat on the couch and patted next to him to have me sit next to him. I sat down and laid my head on his lap."Tell me about your new job." He said and so I did. I gave him all the details and all my feelings. The only thing I didn't tell him about was the personal stuff. "How long are you staying this time?" I asked after I finished my story. "I don't know Little G. It depends on if I get called into work." There was something off about how he answered that, but I don't think he'd appreciate me profiling him so I don't say anything. "I do have to go out tonight for a work thing. It's local but I won't be home until tomorrow night." My phone buzzes with a text.

Derek (BAU Gang): Mike's bar tonight?

Penelope (BAU Gang): YES!

JJ (BAU Gang): I'm in once the kids are asleepSpencer (BAU Gang): SureLuke (BAU Gang): Yes. What time?Emily (BAU Gang): After that case? Yes. Me (BAU Gang): I'm in. Frank is in town, but has work tonight so he won't be home anyway. Plus I miss Mike and Michael. Tara (BAU Gang): Hell yes I'm in!Hotch (BAU Gang): I'll swing by too

My heart fluttered when Emily and Hotch answered. How can two people affect me the same exact way? Frank was now getting ready to leave so I figured I might as well get ready and head to Mike's to eat and catch him up on my train wreck of a life lately.

I put on my shortest black pair of shorts, red bralette shirt and do my makeup. If I was going to Mike's with both Emily and Hotch, I was going to look hot as hell. I put my hair into a high pony then head out. Mike isn't behind the bar when I enter so I go behind the bar and order my food. I was starving and he had trained me to help out when my mom and I first moved here, but I hadn't started working at the BAU yet. "What are you doing behind the bar?" Mike came out of the back office when I was finishing up my order. "I'm hungry, you weren't here so I ordered my food myself." I said rounding the bar and sitting on a stool. "The BAU is coming tonight to party and before they do I need to update you on the drama that is my life." Mike starts getting the bar ready for the night while I tell him the saga. By the time I'm done he has stopped cleaning and is just leaning on the bar staring at me with his jaw on the floor. "I guess the universe is making up for the shitty love life you had before now." Mike responded once he got his jaw off the floor. I chuckled while I heard the kitchen door open and Michael coming out with my food. "Hey Michael, gimme my food!" I said reaching for the food like a toddler. He laughed and placed the plate in front of me. I didn't waste time starting to eat while Mike gave Michael the summarized version of my story. He had a similar reaction to Mike while walking back to the kitchen. Soon after, the BAU gang started arriving. I had moved to a table that would fit all of us and was drinking my first drink. If Emily and Hotch were coming I needed to be at least tipsy, there's a reason I ubered here. Emily was the first one to arrive along with JJ, Tara and Penelope. "We all ubered together to save money!" Penelope squealed when she saw me. Emily sat next to me on one side, JJ sat across from me with Tara next to her and Penelope on my other side. Emily leaned in to my ear and whispered, "you look really good. I love seeing you in everyday clothes." I blushed a little, but it was hidden by my makeup. I quickly picked up my drink and chugged the rest. I got up and went to the bar to get a refill. It was already super busy so I flagged Mike down. "Just make your own drink! And everyone in your groups for the night, add them to your tab and you'll get 50% off for making them." Mike yelled at me. I shrugged and rounded the bar to make my tequila and diet coke. I added it to my tab then headed back to the table. By the time I got to the table, everyone except Hotch had arrived."Sounds like I'm our bartender tonight and we get 50% off all drinks tonight from it. So give me orders!" I relayed to the team. Soon after I was bringing a tray of drinks to the table for everyone, including my third drink. After a few sips Emily grabbed my hand and lead me to the dance floor. Derek had already been on the dance floor for a couple songs. Emily found a spot on the dance floor and turned towards me, not letting go of my hand. We danced together for a few songs and it seemed so right. It seemed like with each song change we ended up closer together. Soon we were dancing with my arms around her neck and her arms around my waist. She was staring into my eyes and it felt like my whole body was on fire. I had to get out of this situation. The song ended and I speed walked to the employee only space, punching in the code to open the door. I got inside and started to try and calm myself down. I heard footsteps behind me, Emily had followed me and got inside before the door closed. "What just happened?" She asked me. I turned around and faced her. Emily looked at me terrified about what my response was going to be. She slowly closed the space in between us and took my hands. "Talk to me Izzy, please." "I can't think when I'm around you outside of work. Once we are off the clock it is like I'm a middle school girl trying to figure out relationships again. Except now two people are chasing me and they affect me the same exact way." Emily's face drops when I say that it's not only her. "There's another person?" She whispered and I could almost hear her heartbreak inside her chest."When I said I don't know my feelings at the hotel bar, I meant it. I never had this problem, no one chased me before, let alone two people. I really like you, I have a crush on you." Emily blushed when I said I had a crush on her. "I have a crush on you too. And only you. I never knew I could feel this way until you showed up at the BAU. It terrifies me how much you have invaded my life." Emily replied while backing me up so I was leaning on a desk and she was in between my legs. I wrapped my arms around her neck like on the dance floor. "On the dance floor, I got overwhelmed. You were so close and it felt so nice, so safe. I was afraid of my feelings," I whispered. Emily brought her one hand and brushed my cheek. "Sei così bella (You are so beautiful)." Emily whispered in my ear while dragging her hand down my body and back to my waist. She moved to look into my eyes at the same distance she whispered into my ear. My body was back to feeling like it was on fire. The way Emily was looking at me didn't help either. Her eyes were full of emotions and were set onto my eyes. I could tell she was looking at me and was seeing everything about me. She walked closer so our bodies were flushed together. I could feel her chest rising and falling with each breath she took. Her eyes were such a soft brown I could've looked at them forever. I caught her looking down at my lips eliciting a smile from me. Nothing else mattered in this moment other than Emily. It was like a magnet was pulling my lips towards her lips. When our lips finally touched every nerve in my body was electrically charged. Her lips were so soft and she tasted faintly of her drink. I wrapped my arms tighter around her neck, pulling her closer to me. She picked me up and walked us to the couch. She sat down so I was straddling her lap never breaking the kissing. She moved her hands from my waist down so her hands were in my back pockets resting on my ass. As soon as her hands entered my back pockets I moaned which caused Emily to smile during the kiss. She applied a little pressure to my ass as if to pull me closer which made me moan even more. I moved my hands to Emily's hair and moved her head to the side as I started kissing down to her neck. I kissed her neck while grasping her hair firmly making Emily moan. I stopped kissing her neck and looked into her eyes for a second while smirking before kissing her lips again. Emily adjusted us so I was on my back on the couch and she was on top of me. She slowly kissed down my body to the top of my shorts. She looked in my eyes as she unbuttoned my shorts and slid them down my legs. She looked back and saw my red lace thong that matched my bralette. Her eyes went wide with lust then continued kissing down my body to my inner thigh. She started kissing around where I desperately wanted her to be kissing. "Emily.. please..." I panted at her which just made her smile. She kissed her way back up my body to my lips. After a couple of kisses I felt Emily slip two fingers into me, pushing my underwear out of the way. I gasped and my back arched causing Emily to smirk while kissing me. She started off with an awfully slow pace, but my breathing deepened anyway. When it felt like I couldn't take it anymore Emily added another finger and fastened the pace. I tried grinding my hips to get her fingers to hit where I wanted but Emily took her free hand and pushed my hips down. She smiled at me sickly then made her way down to my core without stopping her fingers. I moaned as she started circling my clit with her tongue. I gripped her hair as if it was a lifeline and I was drowning. She fastened her pace and I was nearly over the edge. I was a panting and moaning mess. I started riding Emily's face and felt her smile. Her tongue flicked a couple more times and I was orgasming the hardest I ever had. Emily didn't stop until I had come down, then she crawled up my body and kissed me with so much passion I wish I could've bottled it up. She picked me up so I was straddling her lap again. I kissed her trying to portray every emotion I was feeling. I started grinding on her lap needing more of a release. The blood was rushing so loudly in my ears I didn't hear the door unlocking. Mike entered the room before I could see him. "So help me Izzy, you better not be naked from the waist down on my couch!" He exclaimed. "What about partially undressed?" I asked instinctively and chuckled. I looked down at Emily and she was horrified looking at me. Mike put whatever he was holding on the desk then turned to me."You have the code to the employee bathroom, next time at least be courteous enough to use that instead of the couch I sometimes sleep on. Now get dressed and go fuck somewhere else in the club If need be." Mike said. "Not my fault you sometimes can't make it to your apartment that is literally upstairs." I shrugged as he walked out. I looked back down at Emily and kissed her lips softly. "I enjoy this view." I said while smirking. "How are you not freaking out that we just got walked in on? You got overwhelmed when we were just dancing." Emily asked. "I trust Mike, I mean he already knew all my life's details. He is a bartender." I replied. I kissed Emily again. "You are really cute when you are horrified and confused." I got off her lap and slid my shorts back on. She pouted at me, "why'd you leave me?" I smiled at her while climbing back onto her lap once my shorts were on. "If Mike came back and I didn't have my shorts on, we would have one hefty tab to pay full price." I replied then kissed her before she could answer. "We should go back out soon. The rest of the team will become suspicious." Emily groaned in response which made me chuckle. I laid my head on her shoulder while hugging her tightly. I felt so safe in her arms. "We should go out, the others lost their bartender during this hideaway." I said reluctantly while getting up. We walked out the door and Emily went directly to the table. I swung by the bar and did a shot of tequila going over what just happened in my head. I felt someone looking at me and made eye contact with Hotch was sitting at the table with the rest of the team. I took a few more shots before Penelope found me at the bar and dragged me onto the dance floor with her and JJ. The shots were taking effect before I knew it and I was less aware of Hotch watching my every move. At one point JJ whispered into my ear, "you know Hotch came only because of you right? He hasn't come to these nights since Hayley died since they used to come together. He has also been staring at you ever since he found you taking shots at the bar alone." I didn't know how to reply, but thankfully JJ just went back to dancing. I decided to give a show and danced even more sexually. I must've done a good job since a random male came up to me and started dancing with me. I turned to face him and he wasn't that bad looking, but if I was going to be grinding on someone it was either going to be Hotch or Emily. I walked backwards towards JJ and Penelope while wagging my finger "no" at the dude. I turned towards the table and saw Hotch smiling at me before turning towards JJ and Penelope who were dying of laughter. I needed food so I went to the bar and ordered some fries then went to the table. The shots had taken effect making me the right amount of tipsy. A minute later I saw Michael coming over to the table with a heaping basket of fries with cheese on the side. I started jumping in my seat like a child. "Mike told me you were tipsy and would be ordering these soon." Michael said while placing the fries on the table "I love you Michael!" I said while I jumped up and hugged him while kissing his cheek. "You didn't drive here, right?" He asked and I shook my head dramatically. "Ok, good, otherwise I would have had to take your keys." He said while turning to walk back to the kitchen. I sat back down in my seat next to Hotch and started eating the fries and cheese while doing my happy dance. After shoving my face with some fries I looked at Hotch who was just staring at me smiling. "Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked after swallowing my mouthful of food. "No reason." He answered while putting his hand on my thigh under the table. I pulled my phone out and texted him. Me: You look hot in that black polo. I smiled while putting my phone away while his buzzed. He looked at the message then looked at me, lust raging in his eyes as he looked down at my outfit in reply. I finished the fries and leaned back. Hotch was sitting with me and Derek had dragged Spencer onto the dance floor with the rest of the team. I smiled watching the rest of the team dancing together. I turned to Hotch with an evil smile. He frowned at me as I grabbed his hand and dragged him to the dance floor with the rest of the team. He resisted at first, but soon gave up as he saw my smile widen the closer we got to the dance floor. Once we got on the dance floor I didn't let go of Hotch's hand. At the chorus of the song, Hotch started spinning me around while I laughed. At one point he let my hand go and I bumped into someone. I looked up and saw that I spun right into Emily. She immediately took my hand and started dancing with me with the biggest smile on her face. We all switched partners and groups for multiple songs. Soon one by one people left the dance floor and went back to the table to sit down. The fries had helped sober me up so I was just barely feeling the alcohol. It was now only Hotch and me on the dance floor. It was incredibly hard not to wrap my arms around his neck and dance like how I wanted to. I leaned into his ear and whispered, "take me home?" He looked at me and nodded as we headed to say goodbye. I smiled at Emily who was still tipsy and turned to wave goodbye at Mike. He saw who was taking me home and gave me a knowing look. I shrugged with an innocent smile on my face. Once we got to a place where the security cameras don't see I looked back to make sure no team members followed. Once I saw the coast was clear I pulled Hotch into a deep kiss. I broke the kiss and skipped to the passenger side door of his car. He unlocked the car as he walked over with the biggest smile on his face. "I'm glad you weren't still avoiding me." He said while starting the car. "To be fair, that was a lot to wrap my head around." I retorted. "A coworker heard me moaning from making out with our boss." "Did you really have to use your dad as a human shield?" Hotch chuckled while asking. "Hey, it worked! He's a good human shield and he doesn't even know it." I laughed while replying. I directed Hotch to Frank's mansion since he wasn't home tonight. We walked in and I set the security system. I lead Hotch to the kitchen to grab some water. "So this is the infamous mansion I heard about from Derek's complaining..." Hotch said while looking around the main entry like a tourist. By the time he made it to the kitchen I was leaning against the edge of the counter sipping on my water. Hotch found me and made his way towards me. He picked me up and settled me sitting on the counter while settling himself in between my legs. "Well, that was rude, now I'm stuck." I pouted. "That is the point, you can't run away from this conversation anymore." Hotch replied while he settled his hands firmly on my hips. "But what if I like running?" I asked while sipping my water. "I would hope you would at least be running towards me and not away." Hotch answered while I finished my water. I set the cup down and put my arms around his neck. "At this point, I don't know where I'm running sometimes. It's like I'm running in the dark hoping to just run into something or someone else." I answered truthfully. "It just seems like I'm running from my past, but it keeps getting in front of me." "Look for the bright light I am shining, because no matter your past, I will be here." He answered softly. I looked into his eyes and just found love in them, no judgement. I leaned in and kissed him softly then leaned back. "Please tell me you didn't run from my hotel room because you regretted what happened..." Hotch spoke softly. "By the time I looked up after sitting you had run out of the room and I heard your door slam shut... it took all my strength not to run after you." He seemed so dejected and wouldn't look me in the eyes.I moved my hands to cup his face and lift his head so he was looking at me. "I know I should regret it, I know that this thing is such a bad idea and we both could get in a huge amount of trouble. I know I should be running for the hills, but it would be a lie. I feel electric when I'm with you, I feel like you truly see me for me. I ran out of the room because I was processing what happened. That whole night was a whirlwind for me." I leaned in and kissed him while pulling him close. "But I also have the same exact feelings for Emily and don't know what to do. I never had this issue before. I wasn't the girl that had a line of people wanting her. My past doesn't have any acts of love in it..." I immediately pull away from Hotch, realizing what I just confessed. I tried to get out of his grasp, but he tightened his grip to keep me in place. "What did we just talk about with running?" He asked while pulling me more into his arms. I responded by laying my head on his shoulder. I didn't want him to see the tears in my eyes. He softly kissed my head then nudged my head so I was looking at him again. "You don't have to hide from me." He whispered while staring directly in my eyes. I felt so vulnerable, I know it should've been a good thing, but I hated the feeling. I slid farther onto the counter and stood up escaping his reach. He frowned at me as I walked to the edge of the counter and used the stools to get down. "I'm no longer stuck!" I squealed while getting down. Hotch didn't look amused, but he cracked a smile when I started doing a happy dance. "Alexa! Play my music!" I shouted at the smart home bot. I started dancing around the kitchen to my music while Hotch smiled and watched me. At one point I was dancing around him and he grasped my hips and pinned them against the edge of the counter. The music kept going while we just looked at each other, inches apart and breathing heavy. It felt like an eternity where we just stayed like that. Then in an instant Hotch closed the distance and his lips were on mine. The kisses were full of need. He lifted me up and placed me on the counter like before. He deepened the kiss as we were at similar heights now. He kissed his way down my body before unbuttoning my shorts and lifting me to take them off. He threw them to the side and just stared hungrily at my body for a second before kissing me again while pulling my thong down. He pushed my torso down so I was laying on the counter, flesh exposed to him. He kissed his way down my body until he was at my core. He didn't wait long until spreading my legs wider and inserting his tongue. He flicked and sucked like his life depended on it. He hit the right spot and my back arched involuntarily. He kept hitting that spot and a moan left my mouth. He inserted two fingers and started pumping, not stopping his tongue. A moment later I was orgasming while riding his face and fingers. He kissed his way back up my body to my lips. Without breaking our kiss he picked me up and headed towards the stairs. "Rooms. Are. Labeled." I panted to him so he could go to the correct room. He threw me onto the bed and started undressing. I took off my bralette and leaned back on my arms watching as more and more skin was showing of Hotch. He was already unbearably hard from what happened downstairs. I made my way to the edge of the bed and took Hotch's shaft in my hand. I started pumping and then brought the tip into my mouth. As soon as I started sucking Hotch made the most pleasurable moan that made me smile. I started sucking harder and took more of him into my mouth. When it felt like he was almost at climax he pushed me on my back and climbed on top of me. He started kissing me while lining himself up with me. When he entered me my back arched and I moaned into his mouth. He started off with a slow pace, but I needed more. "Harder." I ordered out of breath as he started swirling my right nipple with his finger. He obliged and fastened his pace. Pounding into me at exactly the right pace while we kissed aggressively. Not before long we both were following each other over the edge. Hotch rolled off of me and pulled me into his body while kissing the temple of my head. ——————————————————————————————————————————I woke up and the sun was blaring through the window. My head was pounding and all of my muscles ached. I looked over to Hotch's side of the bed and didn't feel him. I looked at the bed and saw a note. Had to get home before Jack woke up. Don't overthink while I'm gone.If he thought I wasn't going to already be overthinking this he is a wishful thinker. Then again, I guess he also believes he was the only BAU member I fucked last night. I get up and remember my shorts and underwear are thrown across the kitchen. I quickly get dressed and head downstairs hoping Frank hasn't gotten back yet. I successfully put my clothes In my hamper from downstairs then went back to the kitchen for coffee. I looked for my phone, but couldn't find it so I headed to Mike's to see if I left it there. "Izzy! I'm guessing you are looking for your phone? I charged it for you too." Mike said when I walked in as he showed me my phone in his hand. I went and sat at the stool closest to where he was and grabbed my phone from him. "Thank you so much. I woke up and realized it wasn't with me. Where did you find it? I had it in my pocket the whole night!" I replied. Mike gave me a side eye, "it was on the floor of the office." His tone was very accusing. I groaned and laid my head on my arms on the bar top. "I feel like there needs to be a story time from that groan." Mike replied stopping what he was doing. "I might've gotten eaten out by Emily in the office... then went home and got railed by Hotch afterwards." I said the last part really fast. Mike's jaw dropped when he processed what I said. "Wow, the universe truly is making up for your shitty past, you dirty slut." Mike replied while chuckling. I looked down at my phone and saw some messages from Emily, the BAU group chat and Frank. I opened up Frank's message to see what he said.Frank: Work is running late, won't be home until later tonight, maybe tomorrow.I liked his message then looked at the BAU group chat. Spencer (BAU Gang): Next time majority of the team gets drunk maybe let's try and have more sober people to help getting people home safely. I chuckled at the mental image of Spencer trying to get the rest of the team home safely. I paused before hitting Emily's text thread.

Emily: It was a good time until Mike caught us

Emily: I hope you don't regret it. Maybe we can do it again soonEmily: for the sake of my sanity please don't reply to the previous messages. We'll talk once we both sober up

I put my phone on the bar top and groan again. After a minute of mentally dying my phone buzzed again.

Hotch (BAU): New case.

I groan and show the message to Mike. He starts pouring my coffee order into an extra large travel cup and gives me two ibuprofen with a supportive smile. "Get the case done and don't sleep with anyone!" I groaned while getting off the stool in response to Mike's comment. I got in my car and started driving to Quantico. I got to the parking lot and just sat in the car for a solid seven minutes watching everyone go in the building. I also became painfully aware that I was wearing lounge shorts and a tank top. I force myself to get out of the car and go inside.