𝗔𝘀𝗵𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘆 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁 [ Heesun ] 「 18+」

chapter 6

WARNING:

Mention of self harming and suicidal thoughts.

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It was a movie I wasn't really interested in but I watched it because Jungwon said he likes it.

" I'm right in my own home,
but I still have this
"I want to go home" kind of feeling "

I didn't get what the line was about so I nodded absentmindedly and sympathetic smile.

" sign this and get out of here "

It was a familiar yet unfamiliar voice

My father, he was someone who used to call me son, with his voice that I love.

Then why..why does it scare me now?

" what is this.. dad? "

Ah there is that look again, hate and disgust..

"a contract that says, you have no relationship with our family, and you have no say in matters concerning us also it's Mr.Kim for you."

Oh..

I see...

Okay, so this is how it is. If I were them, I would not want me either.

So I pretended to be brave and not cry in front of them; my mother refuses to look at me, and my sister merely stares at me regretfully.

" where do I sign? "

Oh.. my voice craked, that's not good..

" here "

And with no more words spoken, I signed my name; even though my hands and entire body were shaking, I did so without hesitation.

I should have fought or begged, I'm not sure, but I believe I did the right thing; they don't deserve a son like me.

It's better this way.

" very well now you can leave "

To where exactly? It isn't like I have anywhere to go either, and then my sister spoke for the first time.

"Dad, is-is this truly needed? Can't we simply forget and go on? I'm sure he didn't mean to do this, and it's not right. Where will he go?"

Oh, she shouldn't have said that, she shouldn't have supported me, and she shouldn't have been nice to me.

It's all my fault, and I deserve this.

"Noona, da- Mr. Kim is correct... I can't be a part of this family anymore... it takes years to build a reputation and name in this cruel world, and I can't tolerate being a stain on it."