Nicks POV
I'll be real. I've been struggling these past few days honestly I'm so tired of it,Matt and Chris don't give a fuck I try and talk to them I get called dramatic. Then when they need to speak I'm always here for them...I'm not complaining I'm the oldest triplet I have to deal with it.
Matt came up to me and just looked at me. "Are you done with editing? Video needs to be put soon" He said,I looked at my laptop to see I've only editing half of it. "Nick for fucks sake! You can't do ONE ONE job" Matt started to get annoyed,I felt guilty.
"FUCKING HURRY UP THEN" Matt shouted slamming my door,I knew I had to get to work and honestly I felt so exhausted...I walked downstairs to where Matt and Chris just stared at me. "Can't we just release it on Friday...?" I asked "NICK NO! PEOPLE ARE WAITING C'MON YOU KNOW WE MAKE THEIR DAY?! FUCK YOU JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT" Chris shouted walking over to me and grabbing my shoulder aggressively.
I looked at him panicked and I didn't know what to do...he soon let go and I think I just kinda stopped breathing for a second then ran up to my room. I shut my door and sat behind it. I had a 10 minute breakdown before pulling myself together,I just sat on my bed and laid down.
My face was red as well as my eyes,my hair was sticking to my face because of the sweat but I swear I'm trying...I grabbed my laptop as I wiped the extra tears that were falling from my eyes.
I didn't care how I looked I knew I looked like shit but I really don't care neither do Matt and Chris. I finished editing and looked at the time,I posted it,it takes around an hour to upload so it should be uploaded by the time and that means I'll be on time with the schedule.
I started pacing around the room as I was muttering to myself panicking about everything,that was interrupted when I felt a pair of hand go around my waist. I turned around to see it was Max!
I jumped his arms and buried my head in his neck,he just hugged me as he sat on my bed. "Hey baby what's wrong?" He asked soothingly I didn't say a thing I just wanted the comfort,Max read my body language and we just sat in a comfortable silence.
Matt soon came in the room and I wasn't facing him bis I couldn't tell what he was thinking. I thought he would've just left but instead he grabbed my by the wrist and pulled me off of max.
"GOD YOUR SO FUCKING LAZY! GET OFF YOUR ASS AND TIDY THE FUCKING HOUSE" Matt shouted hitting me "ALSO HAVE YOU DONE THE FUCKING VIDEO?!" He shouted again as I nodded.
Matt just stormed out of the room as I stood there shocked. Max came over to me as I dropped to my knees just in shock,Max cradled me in his arms. "Nick...what the fuck..." he asked running his hand over my cheek,I got up and was literally shaking.
"S-sorry that was j-Just in shock..." I said,I walked downstairs as Max followed me Matt and Chris were on the couch and they just stared. "Of course you brought your boyfriend to protect you" Chris said rolling his eyes,max looked pissed but I didn't want him to worry.
I started cleaning up the kitchen trying to be as quiet as possible but then a plate dropped,I panicked not the fuck that it cut me the fact that it smashed. Max ran over to me and went straight to the cut on my arm but Matt pushed him out the way.
"NICK WHAT THE FUCK?! GOD YOUR SO FUCKING USELESS WHY DO WE ASK YOU TO DO ANYTHING!" Matt shouted at me,Max was loosing it. "RIGHT FUCKING CALM DOWN HES CLEARLY HURT ALL YOU WANNA DO IS SCOLD HIM RIGHT?! IF IT WEREN'T FOR HIM YOU WOULDN'T HAVE A FUCKING YOUTUBE CHANNEL!" Max shouted.
I started cleaning the shattered plate up as they continued arguing then I ran up to my room.
Max's POV
"WELL ITS NOT MY FAULT YOUR BOYFRIEND IS A PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT!" Matt shouted "DON'T EVER FUCKING SAY THAT AGAIN. HES NOT USELESS." I shouted back,Chris was standing next to Matt.
"DON'T FUCKING SHOUT AT HIM" Chris shouted checking if matts okay "BETTER STILL GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!" Chris shouted as Matt started playing the "victim" breaking down on the floor.
I walked up the stairs to Nick and saw him having a panic attack in the corner. I slowly made my way to him as I put his head on my chest,I ran my hands through his hair. "Your okay my love...let's breath okay?" I said to him he calmed down and just latched onto me.
"I'm sorry..." he muffled into my t-shirt "Nick it's okay really...I have to go now Chris said it he's literally going to call the cops and lie..." I said to Nick. "N-no! Don't leave me..." Nick said grabbing onto my t-shirt "Nicky...I would love to stay but otherwise I'll get arrested and then you won't have me for a long time..." I explained as he let go of me.
We both stood up and he just looked down,I grabbed his chin and kissed him pulling him in by the waist. "I love you my love okay?" I said cuddling him,he wrapped his arms around me then I let go.
"I'll see you later" I said walking out.
Nicks POV
Fuck...I hate myself. Why am I so attached to people?! Chris came up and looked at me. "Your worthless you know that right? You don't try in fact you put the least amount of effort into everything!" He said.
I just looked down but that was when Chris pushed me to the ground. "I fucking HATE you" he said as he put his food on my stomach,I was about to have a panic attack. Chris shouted at me for a few more minutes before actually leaving my room.
Once he did I ran into the bathroom. I got a blade and a few bottles of pills out,I started cutting myself with the blade until I fell dizzy then I took a load of the pills. I started to feel dizzy.
I started blacking out...
Matt's POV
Once max left I waited around 5 minutes then I walked up to nicks room. I looked around and he wasn't in his bed or in his depressed corner,I walked into the bathroom and gasped.
"FUCK. CHRIS" I shouted as I placed nicks head onto my lap,Chris came running in the gasped as well. Nick was slowly loosing consciousness but was still a little awake,I took the chance and threw my fingers down his throat as he threw up all of the pills.
Chris wiped his arms and bandaged them up. Nick was soon conscious enough and just leaned against the wall with his head in his hands. "I was so close..." he muttered "Nick no..." I said he just stood up.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN NO?! UOU DONT CARE AND YOU DONT CARE" he shouted pointing to me and Chris "YOU CALL ME FUCKING USELESS AND SAY IM NOT TRYING ENOUGH IM TRYING IVE TRIED I SWEAR AND KM SORRY THAT ITS NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU! IVE BEEN TRYING. I'VE BEEN FUCKING TRYING FOR AGES BUT YOU BOTH DONT GIVE A SHIT!" Nick shouted as tears ran down his face.
Chris called max while I tried to calm Nick but nothing was working. Around 10 minutes Max came and told me and Chris to go downstairs which we did.
Max's POV
"Love? Your okay..." I said as I brought Nick to his bed,he laid on to of me and just cuddled me. "What happened my love?" I asked as I placed my hand onto his back.
"I-I tried to kill myself..." he said I gasped as I was flushed in concern,I started rubbing my hand in circled over his back. "Don't do that again okay? I don't want you hurting yourself come talk to me instead okay?" I said kissing his forehead.
"Sorry...Matt and Chris were drilling words into my head..." Nick said slowly falling asleep. I kissed his hand "Go to sleep sweetheart okay? I'll be here the whole night" I said holding his hand.
Before I knew it Nick was fast asleep. I smiled as I laid down and I soon fell asleep.
