Jaycen and Aubrey are settling into married life with children; but will a new doctor on the scene tear them apart? Chancez is still reeling from the return of his presumed dead mother and his new half brother who happens to be Derby's son. Will the...
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AUBREY
MARVIN'S ROOM, huh? That is the name of the song that I have on repeat as I lie here alone in this big old bed at Trey's condo. This is the last beer in the twelve pack that I had been drinking. Funny how situations can transform a life...a lifetime. How did I end up here? How did it all come to this?
"Echoes Of Silence" started filling the room. This Weeknd dude is the shit! He is even better when you are drunk. I guess I should get up and take a shower. I really want to go over to the Christopher and talk to Jaycen in the bright light of day. But, I am not going to do that. I am going to give him his space...for now. But, I am not giving up. Yes, I may have fucked up with Novocaine ONCE, but I am IN love with Jaycen. I love my family. I love our life. I'm not just going to give him up that easily. I hope that he feels the same...
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JAYCEN
Grief. Grief is a multi-faceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something to which a bond was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also has physical, cognitive, behavioral, social, and philosophical dimensions. While the terms are often used interchangeably, bereavement refers to the state of loss, and grief is the reaction to loss. Grief is a natural response to loss. It is the emotional suffering one feels when something or someone the individual loves is taken away. Grief is also a reaction to any loss. Individuals grieve in connection with a variety of losses throughout their lives, such as unemployment, ill health or the end of a relationship. Loss can be categorized as either physical or abstract.
Here I sit across from Dr. Emmaline Lindley GRIEVING the loss of my relationship, my husband. I am not grieving because Aubrey is dead. I am grieving because he has killed something inside of me. You see, instead of me lying in bed crying my eyes out AGAIN. I refuse to go down this road a second time. So, with Avis' and Kaylen's encouragement, I came in here to talk to my therapist. She sat across from me with her note-pad and pen. Her thin-rimmed glasses were perched on her nose, as we stared at each other.
"So, Jaycen, tell me what EXACTLY is it that you are feeling right now?"
"I feel...betrayed...hurt...tired," I said slowly.
