New Life

Speed Bump

A couple more months pass. Yusuke and Kurama start their fourth month together. They still haven't told anyone Yusuke is ready to! However each time Yusuke goes to possibly mention it to Kurama he acts shy...or unsure. It's become a bit of a song and dance...not a fun one either. They would have amazing days filled with fun and happiness but it would follow with Kurama going off for a moment alone and he would look distant. Yusuke tried to ignore it at first. He thought Kurama was just still getting used to being together but...he should be used to it now right?

Yusuke wasn't sure what was going on. He started almost obsessing over if he did something wrong but he couldn't think of anything. Maybe he did something he didn't realize Kurama didn't like? Was he too clingy? Thinking this Yusuke did pull back a bit less kisses and shorter hugs and holding time. However nothing changed. Yusuke took a couple of weeks test out something he was questioning...afterwards though the results just made him more upset.

There wasn't really much he could do besides talk to Kurama directly about what he was thinking and feeling. Yusuke wanted to get it done as soon as possible as well. It was important to talk it out so they could find a solution. He dreaded it though...there was so much going through his head at once, possibilities, scenarios, maybe this maybe that...but if they didn't talk then there would continue to be an annoying little voice in Yusuke's head that wouldn't go away.

Yusuke bit his lip nervously as he looked up at Kurama's apartment complex. Luckily, since Yusuke had a habit of popping in sporadically, Kurama always let Yusuke know if he had a client to meet. According to the last update text Kurama didn't have a client meeting for another two weeks. It was now or never...Yusuke even waited until Friday afternoon just in case the conversation went long.

Yusuke took a deep breath as he went up to Kurama's apartment and went in "yo Kurama you have a moment?" He called out slipping off his shoes.

"I'm in the living room Yusuke!"

Yusuke leaned on the entrance to the living room watching Kurama going through papers. Must be a clean out day since that's the only time he works in the living room. Yusuke was quiet not wanting to disturb Kurama's flow.

Kurama put a small stack of papers into a shredder then took off his glasses and looked over at Yusuke "I haven't made dinner yet. I was planning on beef fried rice tonight though!"

Yusuke swallowed hard, any form of fried rice was difficult to get perfect and he really really REALLY loved when Kurama made it. He shook his head "uh yeah...I just." He rubbed the back of his neck nervously "I...was wondering..." Damn it how could he start? This was harder than when he asked Kurama out!

Kurama looked at Yusuke worried "you look really pale." He stood up from the couch "and you have bags under your eyes!"

Yusuke shrugged "I've just had a lot on my mind recently...so I haven't been sleeping well."

"Do you need a sleep remedy. I can make you one easy."

Yusuke shook his head "no no...I think um." He sighed "once I get this in my head out that maybe I'll be able to sleep."

Kurama nodded "well that makes sense. Is that why you're here? You need to talk?" Just saying that made him a bit nervous.

Yusuke nodded "yeah..." He looked at Kurama "we should sit."

That just made Kurama more nervous but he nodded and sat back on the couch. Yusuke sat in the chair that was across from where Kurama sat. There was silence for a while but Yusuke knew he really needed to get this off his chest before it got too late.

Yusuke just needed to rip the bandaid off. He needed answers "I'm..." He licked his lips "did I do something wrong?"

Kurama looked at Yusuke confused. He shook his head "I don't understand? I mean of course you haven't but why would you think you did?"