I lost my job after being plauged with nightmares. Staying awake days because of fear.
Around me, there is genuinely no hope or reason for change. I seek to better myself and through this. I go weekends without talking to other people. Weeks have passed. Months soon will. I struggle to find a will to live.
Anyways, back to the nightmare
I was in a room of hands pulling me down, as they were words appeared written in her blood as they spelled out my crimes.
I couldn't speak as the hands covered my mouth and forced my eyes open. I tried to look around, but they kept my head straight as I was dragged across the concrete. I could feel my skin dragging and bleeding as the same kids that bullied me did so. They were kicking me down as I was being dragged. I could hear them laugh at me in the same way. "Freak, twitchy, retard, freak, look at whos gonna cry!" Words filled my head as the hands kept dragging me down.
I could feel the skin turn into muscle as the dragging downed, and so did the voices. They let go of me, to put chains on me. It felt odd having them on me. Felt lighter. I looked around me. The words were all there. I looked down, and the platform was made of my blood.
Rapist, arise. I felt them drag me up. Stabbing into my armpits as they did.
"What says you in your defense?"
The hands forced my mouth to shut, breaking my jaw and teeth. I was drowning but couldn't wake up. I was forced to be there. To sit and say nothing. Then it happened.
A 6 year old me, barely dressed, walked up to the court and started to say random words. I'm defending my pillow pet. That bumble bee. The same one which my family threw away. His name was Bumble Bee. I called him Bumble Bee. The younger me was defending him with everything.
The jury agured amongst themselves as they did, I cried, understanding why they were. All at once, in the voice of all of my victims, they said, "we find you guilty Mr.Hughes on a count of 7/0. On all charges."
The little boy looked at his pillowpet and didn't cry but rather held him close as the hands grabbed him and took form into my rapist. I was as the chains forced me down to watch. The judge speaks as the rest of the courtroom turns into a black slim, slowly turning into the platform.
The judge spoke in a voice I feared. A voice of something else.
"Me, and this court deem you guilty of all charges. Mr. Hughes. You shall face all the charges. This is your new home."
The judge turned into slime. I watched myself get brutalized. They finished and did a deep scrub. As I was barely dressed. I crawled away to mr.bumble bee. There I sat with him. Holding him, telling him I would never hurt anyone or him just because I was. In my broke English. I held him tight. Crying. Crying as I did. My tears stained that one.
He then turned into slime, as my chains loosened. The hands let go of my mouth. I could breathe once again.
I looked around, and the words were carved into the distance just enough to be able to read them as she appeared. She looked at me with doe eyes and as she got closer she drew more and more sad. Broken hearted. I looked at her as my life's lacked life now. I weeped. I cried. I caused this. The hands guide her away, taking form into multiple people. I looked as she turned into white smile. Mr. BUMBLE bee spoke.
"You lied to me, you swore that you wouldn't. I was thrown away to make you cry and hurt and this is how you act? I'm disappointed in you Dominic. You failed everyone. Be better"
His voice was deep and filled with a firmness and sorrow. I weeped.
I woke up being late to my job and being fired.
