Alone, I die here in my tomb. A husk amongst men. A failure amongst it all. She called me creepy and told me she doesn't even really wanna speak to me. Life is slowly fading to a pointless mess. My life is broken. I seek company but only hers. Porn sucks and I was watching it to just look at it all and realize it doesn't matter.
She's moving on. I'll forever be stuck like this. I caused this, so woe is me. Kinda of ironic that I did this all out of being able to see it happen. All out of knowing it was pointless but that draws me to wonder, was it meant to be always? Just to live like this? Just to be a play thing amongst all men and gods? I pray for a answer for am I prey?
No one answers. Week past alone, I no longer seek out friendship. Relationships scare me. Fear has taken my heart.
I shall face this storm alone like it was meant to be. I can feel the pulling and breathing of something else. I beg for mercy at the gates.
