Bringing Bella back Again!

chapter 13

       Edward pov

"What 's wrong Edward! Please jus...ohh you she took the gun from you didn't she? I caused all this to happen! You were going to. Noo and then she was. All because of me? It's not you that needs to be forgiven Edward it's me. I caused you to almost.." Then she went silent and all I heard was crying.

"Bella this is not your fault! I was lost without you and that ghost and he put awful thoughts in your head about me and also me and my baby girl. I completely lost you. You were terrified of me and you were trying to take it all away from me. You didn't love me anymore. I lost you completely except for our connection." I lost again.

"The more I tried,  the more you would disappear. Then you didn't even know me Bella. To you I was  like all the other men. You always pissed at Rosey, you couldn't understand how she could even let me close to her like that and because I am a man and all they want is one fucking thing. " I  told her.

"My sister knew I had my  gun again. So yeah, when I wasn't with you guys again I had that gun to my head again.

"I lost my best friend, my wife, the person I love so fucking much. Your spirit alright left your body. Where you go I follow Bella. Your body was here but you weren't here. But you already didn't love me anymore and I lost my best friend and you were terrified of me. I couldn't see your eyes that speak to me, you never spoke to me again, not even in my head. I lost everything but our connection to each other and I was already on the verge of my heart stopping anyways. I can't be without you Bella. You made me a better person! I couldn't tell anyone anything and it was just gone. I couldn't stand the pain of losing you and I  had to stop your heart this time it was so much different and more difficult this time to do for me." I told her.

"My sister knew! She made me give her the gun and the next I knew she had pointed to her head cocked. Ohh!  The words about being left all alone if I did that and her head being so quiet because she lost  you." I started explaining.

"She was actually going to do it too. I almost lost her too. I had already lost you now I was in a situation where I was going to lose my sister and Emmett and your dad was watching all this unfold in the security room. They almost saw her blow her head off." I told Bella.

"I went so fast into a mode but I moved the gun in time from her head but it still went off. She  still shot it! Before I could get it out of her hands. It wasn't you and I was already not functioning right to properly save her." I told her.

"It hit a major artery in her arm, no bone was broken, she's in a coma. I've been alone ever since until you woke up."  I told her!.

"Edward come, here!" I turned and looked down at her. "I can't move, you have to come to me honey, please!" So I laid beside her.

Her hand went on the side of my face. She had tears falling from her eyes.

Then she pressed her lips to mine and then leaned her forehead against mine.

"I don't think none of this is our fault honey! It was what was in my head wasn't it?"  I nodded my head.

"I never found my daddy when I came out of that cave and out of the water. Did I? The gap in the memories." I nodded my head again.

"Are they able to touch me?" She asked me. "No baby! The scars are because they couldn't touch you to do it.  He kidnaps young children to  be under his control and puts chips in their minds and trackers. The other guy planted special types of trackers on the vessel and one was on the cruiser. From walking in to find you when you were giving birth. They are after our kids Bella. Anthony made it so you couldn't have kids. You couldn't be with a man. He witnessed it first  hand.  He even tried multiple times, himself Bella. Then when that guy outside the  bedroom it didn't all click then until after I did a complete thoroughly all types of completed scans from head to toe not missing anything either and where I found them is where the scars are worse on your back. No one ever scans there or your head. Not even my dad Bella. No one can touch those areas except for me!" I explained to her.