Bringing Bella back Again!

chapter 17

       Edward pov

I had my head leaned back against the wall and my eyes closed.

"So you want to say that word to me again Bella when you can do that? Don't ever call yourself a cripple again. I haven't and I never will!" I pushed myself off the wall and kneeled down beside her.

"Are you paralyzed Bella?" She shook her head no. "You may not have all your strength yet baby but you just did this all by yourself. I always believed in you and always will Bella. I love you. For you to call yourself that and I refuse to call you should say something to you Bella on top of everything fucking else. Do you get it now about me with you?" I asked her as I cupped the side of her side of her face.

She was just looking at me with her eyes. "Oh God! I'm so sorry Edward what you must think of me always pushing like this!"  She gets and I picked her up.

"That's all I ever wanted Bella was you to see me for who I really am. I know who you really are and I don't think of you any less for it! I love you Bella. God all I ever wanted since we meant is for you to stop pushing me away. I'm not them. I can't do what they do! That's all I been trying to show you and tell you Bella but you keep pushing me away not me pushing you away." Her head fell against mine.

She had tears falling from her eyes and I got into the bath tub and sat down with her on my lap with her facing me.

"You need to let me fully in Bella. You say you choose me but you don't let me in fully you keep pushing me away." I explained to her.

"Then show me how to let you in because I want to but I don't know how to because of what they done and always told me about my body. They told me I would never have a friend or no what it be like to be in love or be in love and Anthony told if a man ever told me he loves me that he's lying to me because why would a man love someone like me as ugly and scared up as I could be and couldn't even give him children much less get close to me like this but still I had doubts because I seen what men do to themselves and saw them cheating on other women. I was forced to watch this even before I found my dad and even after to!" She explained to me.

"Then them with you and what they called me." She dropped her head really crying now.

I gently lifted her chin so I could see her face and then I pulled it close to mine.

"You're so beautiful to me Bella. It didn't matter to me you couldn't have children. What matter to me and still does is you. Yes we do have kids together and that's a blessing in itself and that's enough for me Bella because you are what matters to me not them. Hell I've seen their minds I don't want that I want you always have since I figured out I loved you! I married you twice in fact and I do it again and again to marry just you Bella because you're the only one I want to be with and has ever been able to do anything to me like this." I pressed my lips to show her.

"I can't do that with another then what I can you. No one can do what you can do to me and they can't compare to you ever. You're everything I need!" I slowly picked her up and slid down on my manhood and just stopped when we became one.

"I can't be like this or get this way with another woman and never even got one until you Bella and I am not giving that up or you up for anything is any world no matter!" I pressed my lips back to hers and kept showing her what she meant to me and how I felt about her as I moved us.

Then I felt her fully open herself to me. "That's my girl!" I kept pressing soft kisses to her lips as she continued to open herself up to me and letting me fully in and it was the most amazing incredible feeling to feel that happening at the same time we were making love.

A blue and green light surrounded us and as released at the same time a surged went through us at the same time and she literally screamed out my name at the same time for the first time.