Theocorp - A Stanley Parable AU

Chapter 13.5 - Explorer's Log, Entry 32

Well, it's gotten worse.

Not only am I stuck here, but I'm stuck here with insomnia. I don't know how someone can just get insomnia in less than thirty days, but, oh boy, it's happened to me.

How do i know?

Well, I'm really tired. Guess why?

Bingo! Haven't slept in 15 days!

Believe me, buddy. I've tried. Unfortunately, I can't take melatonin because I DON'T HAVE ANY, and even when i hit myself really hard in the head, i don't pass out, i just start bleeding.

I'm not going insane, am I?

I feel like sometime in the future, someone's gonna be reading this, watching my brain slowly deteriorate into dust. My handwriting'll slowly get worse, and eventually there will be some blood splatter on the page from when I inevitably--

Let's not go there, actually.

But the look of concern on their face will mirror that of...

Wait, who am i thinking of?

My head's all fuzzy. Better not to think of this that much more.

After 32 days in limbo, (that's what I'm calling it now. Inception reference. I think this name is well-deserved,) i think i'm an expert. I've deduced a few things:

1. SAND:
Limbo is an endless desert. Literally endless. There will never be a point where i'll find an ocean or walk so far i'll see my own footsteps leading away from me.* Also, flat earth theory is stupid, so that's out of the question. Apart from the occasional monolith, wind turbine, giant hourglass, Boeing F/A-18E/F Super Hornet, etc., there's nothing to see here.
(*However! I have been walking and suddenly teleported ten steps backwards and seen my footsteps leading away from me, so there's that.)

2. SKY:
The sky is weird. There are two moons, as far as I can tell, no sun, and lots and lots of stars. some of them are even connected by lines like a constellation diagram, which makes no sense. Plus, plenty of comets, which always seem to be crashing into the desert sand. The sky's always this sort of purplish-indigo, which will fade into a magenta when one of the moons is rising or setting. Although, it has been green, turquoise, or red before

3. NOISES:
I think this may just be me going crazy, but sometimes, I hear things. Once, it was the ocean. I heard a clock ticking a while back, and just this morning, I could have sworn i heard speech.

4. OBJECTS:
sometimes, i can find random stuff in the sand. For example, a tape recorder, playing that human speech i had mentioned earlier. so far, i've found a laptop, a feather, a love letter, a watch, a radio, a paper crane, a toy car, and quite a few coins of various origin. I've spotted various other items lying in the sand, though.

5. VISIONS:
sometimes, I can see things. I can see places. I don't know how or why or if i'm just dreaming, but a sensation comes over me, and, boom. It's happened, maybe, seven times. I've seen a jungle, a dying star, you name it. This morning, i saw a man at a desk, clutching his skull and covering his ears, miserable. It was terrifying.

But I need to get out of here.

I keep forgetting things about myself, about my life before.

I can't just keep aimlessly wandering these dunes, waiting to be saved.

I need to do something.