Even If

Chapter XV

Jamie's POV 

I was confused with everything, I'm scared. When my mum died I thought that It would be the last time that I would ever feel this kind of pain. I thought that, losing someone you love is the worst feeling a human being can possibly come across to in their life. 

But now I've realized....

Protecting the lives of people you love, from death including yours 

Is much worst. 

I sat on the couch in silence with my two girls at each arm. Both of them fell asleep. For some reason, it cheered me up a bit. 

Dulcie is more like Dakota than Amelia.  

Dulcie's smart, she's open minded for someone so young. She quickly understands the situation just by observing the scene itself. She's strong and she gives you hope when you know that hope is already gone. 

She's like Dakota, she gives a lot of hope to people. Even though she feels like her life is falling apart, she still thinks that there's always a reason to be happy. I love her.  There's something about her that I can't point out, she gets me going everyday, she keeps my heart from falling out of my chest when I'm in a bad situation, she keeps me alive. 

She sees all her flaws but all I see is an angel.  An angel sent by god who will carry me to a path of happiness. 

"I love you both, so much......If It wasn't for the two of you, I probably wouldn't be here" 

 I whispered to the two of them, still cuddling up to me, both of them laying down on their sides, both of their heads in my stomach. 

I examine Dakota's face while stroking her hair......Oh how fast time goes by.

It seems like yesterday

we just met on set. 

*Flashback* 

I'm finally seeing Sam today, the director of Fifty Shades of Grey for my audition. 

I will be auditioning the lead role, Christian Grey. I'm not expecting any miracles but I hope that It will go well and nothing will go wrong. 

I step inside the building where auditions were being held, I ride the elevator up to the 20th floor and the first thing I see was a line of very attractive men waiting for their name to be called. 

Well, patience it is. 

Since my name is not yet called, I decided to get myself a drink. They serve various kinds of drinks for the people auditioning while they are waiting. 

I head towards the bar to get myself an ice cold coffee just to wake up my system. 

"Can I get a coke light please?"  the pale and amazingly beautiful girl in jeans and shirt told the waiter. I stared at her, really struck by her beauty. She has red lips, matching her cheeks. She's skinny and flawless. Her shiny soft hair perfectly falls down on her shoulders. She's beautiful. Her beauty is so obvious that she can light up a room just by walking through it. My heart is already beating fast and I don't even know her. I don't even know this girl.