eighteen: FEELINGS

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"Can you stop avoiding me??" Beomgyu exclaims as he fast walks down the hallways of the university.

"NEVER!!" Taehyun shouts back, now running down the hallways, not even looking back and even ignoring the questioning stares and whispers from the many students.

That's until he bumps into Kai.
"Kai!!" Kai calls out and drags his friend by the arm, pulling him to the corner.
"Taehyun? What are you-"

"Shhhh!!" Taehyun clasps his hand over Kai's mouth while his eyes peer to find Beomgyu still wandering around the hallways as the older searches for him.

Kai's eyes follow Taehyun's and spots Beomgyu scratching his head as he loses sight of Taehyun in the crowd. The raven haired then gives up and walks away, Taehyun finally releases his hand from Kai's mouth after Beomgyu's no where to be seen.

"Are you running away from Beomgyu-hyung??" Kai asks after getting the idea.
"Shhhh!!" Taehyun cuts him off, looking a good 360 degree to see if anyone heard them.

"Please let me stay over at yours and Soobin." Taehyun pleads with his eyes, rubbing his hands together in desperation.
"Wha- now what happened between you two??" Kai asks.

Taehyun's cheeks grow red as he recalls last week's event.
Yes, it's been a week.

He opens his mouth to tell him but the words just won't come out.
"H-He..." Taehyun stutters.
"He??"
"He kissed me." Taehyun whispers but Kai raises his eyebrows at that.

"He what?? I can't hear you, Tae."
"Beomgyu-hyung kissed me."

"Ahh..." Kai says, not until his mind processes what his best friend had just said. He looks back at Taehyun with wide eyes.
"HE KISSED YOU??" Kai exclaims and Taehyun instantly covers his mouth.

"Shut your big ass mouth up!!" Taehyun whispers shout.
"Who kissed who??"

The two friends turn around at the familiar voice to find Soobin approaching them both with his sling bah over at his shoulder.

"Geez you can literally recognise Kai's voice just from how loud it is. So, who kissed who?" Soobin asks again.
He pans to Taehyun and notices how hardly blushing Taehyun is and then he smirks cheekily.
"Did you kiss Soeun?" Soobin asks, catching the two friends off guard.

"W-What???? I-"

"Hyung, take the hint. Man's haven't even made a proper move yet and you expect him to kiss her." Kai butts in.
"Kai!!" Taehyun shouts.

"Then, who did Taehyun kiss??" Soobin asks.
"More like, who did Beomgyu-hyung kiss?"

Soobin titles his head in confusion from Kai's sudden mention of Beomgyu but after a few seconds of processing, his eyes enlarge like saucers.

"Kang Taehyun???" Soobin calls out in shock and disbelief.

"Ahhh, I don't know, I don't know." Taehyun shakes his head, smacking his head in the process.

'I'm fucked. I'm fucked. I'm fucked.'

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"You kissed him?" Yeonjun asks after hearing Beomgyu rant.

"Why do you sound so calm??" Beomgyu asks, clearly still internally freaking out.

He's been trying to get Taehyun to talk to him ever since morning but Taehyun left the dorm before he could've gotten the chance. He even chased him down the hallways earlier like some maniac only for the younger to disappear into thin air.
"I thought it was bound to happen." Yeonjun says.

"I have no idea why I did that. And now he's avoiding me and it's been a week?? How can someone successfully avoid me for a week??"

"Wait. You kissed him and didn't tell me shit for a week??"

"Is that really the only thing you're focused on?? Yes, I kissed him-"
"How did it felt?"

"Amazing. Wait, what the fuck am I saying??"

Yeonjun chuckles at that as he succeeds to tease his younger friend and Beomgyu rolls his eyes at that.
"It's not like I never kissed a single person before." Beomgyu argues.

"It's because it's Kang Taehyun, your roommate and the literal person you asked to change roommates-"
"Correction, Taehyun wanted the change too." Beomgyu cuts the pinkette off.

"So? Why did you even kiss him in the first place??" Yeonjun asks and Beomgyu sighs.

"I don't know. It's just something about him that night. How perfectly he looked under the moonlight, how the moon reflected in his dark orbs as if his eyes hold the entire galaxy, how his hair was softly blown by the wind and the atmosphere. I don't know, I just-"

"Beomgyu." Yeonjun cuts his off but Beomgyu shrugs his back.
"There's something..."

"Choi Beomgyu." Yeonjun repeats.
"What the fuck do you want?? It's been a week and can't you see I'm having an internal crisis??"

"You're in love with him." Yeonjun blurts out and Beomgyu chokes on his saliva, sitting up straight as he stares back at Yeonjun in shock and bewilderment.

"H-Huhhhh???"
"You have feelings for Taehyun."

"What do you mean??" Beomgyu scoffs, brushing off whatever the pinkette had said.

How can he be in love?? The word 'love' itself sounds icky whenever it rolls out of Beomgyu's tongue. It's a foreign word to him because he's never really experienced it, he never wants to, no strings attached as he said.

Heck, he never experience seeing love or be loved. He never thought he grew up in that environment.
His parents aren't together and they have different partners. They're never committed to one another nor tend to Beomgyu's needs.

Beomgyu has always been in the care of his care takers back at his family home. He's always been alone, he's never known the feeling unlike other children who are spoiled by their parents.

Beomgyu is spoiled. Of course he is. But he's never asked for it. All he wants is to be spoiled-
With his parent's love.

But now his relationship with his parents are nothing more but like business partners interacting on a daily basis.
"You like him. Or maybe you love him. Maybe you're not realising it yet." Yeonjun says.

"How can you tell if it's love?" Beomgyu asks.

"You can't. But you'll know. Your heart will know."

Beomgyu suddenly feels his heart thump against his chest, swelling up at the thought of being in love. His cheeks dust a pink shade as his kind drifts off to the thought of being in love with his roommate, Taehyun.

Is what he feels towards Taehyun, the one feeling he desires to feel?

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