Safe With You

01: With You

Raine Kensington

To be loved is all I ever wanted in life growing up.

For as long as I could express my emotions and understand what it meant to give and feel love. It was all I wanted. Now, I have it. But is it what I really want? Is it giving me what I need?

My amazing boyfriend, Jacob has been there for me for as long as I can remember (almost three years).

I'm glad to have him by my side in this world where love is practically nonexistent. Everyone these days is all about sneaky links, no strings attached, and purely sexual relationships. And I'm not about that, I want someone to be my side to talk to all day, and not have them in my bed just for one reason.

Life gets lonely and even more lonely when all you have is your sneaky link who doesn't even like you like that. What do you think they'll do when you need someone and they're the only option you got? Do you think they're going to run toward you to save you? You're funny if you think so.

These days those people couldn't care less about your feelings and well-being.

All they care about is sex, money, and fun. And so be it, if that's their cup of tea, go right a-fucking-head. I don't want to live life like that. A life when they only want you after hours, in the dark, when no one can see you.

Don't get me started on people's standards--- it is so low. The lack of respect people have for themselves is insane! Settling for less than what they deserve, I could never. And I would never do that to myself.

The sound of a door shutting brings me out of my thoughts as I snap my head toward the source.

Jacob walks inside, throwing his gym bag by the counter, eyes trained on his phone. He walks over to the fridge and takes out a cold water bottle.

"Hey J," I mumbled, walking over and wrapping my arms around his frame. Looking at him through my lashes. His dark chocolate hair is hidden under a cap, his body sweaty from the workout, brown eyes staring back at me. "Don't have enough energy to greet your girlfriend?" I hummed, asking out of curiosity and annoyance.

Jacob sighs before smiling and placing his phone on the counter to wrap his arms around my shoulders. He tips my chin up and captures my lips in between his, salt dances across the soft skin, as I feel him.

He breaks the kiss and tilts his head. "Is that better?" Jacob asked, giving me one peck before he started walking toward the bedroom. "I'm going to shower, you wanna join me?"

Before I can answer he shuts the door and the sound of water fills the room. What a lovely boyfriend. I roll my eyes before sitting back at the table and in front of my laptop, checking some last-minute emails.

I had work to do anyway.

Jacob and I, moved in together last year. It's been a crazy ride because I always told myself I would never move in with a boyfriend but here I am.

Life recently has been boring, to say the least. And that's the nicest thing I can say for now. Because life isn't sunshine and rainbows every single day. There are days when it's fucking pouring and windy.

Relationships aren't always pretty. Jacob and I have been through our honeymoon phase, but how long is that? How long can you stay in the honeymoon period?

I love my boyfriend but small problems continue to add onto each other every day and I don't know if I can handle it.

I've been left in the dark and led as a fool. All these issues are childish and for no reason. Is there something else going on? Am I not enough?