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11. Driving me insane

"Hello there

Is anyone there?
Where is
Is there anyone
To answer me?
Is anyone there?

You're disappearing, more and more, without a sound
From me, without any reason
Was everything a misunderstanding?
Were we looking at each other in a dream?"

~I need somebody by Day6

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"It's been so many days"

Jisoo thought to herself, laying in bed. 

It was 11.29 pm, Jisoo was going to bed, trying at least.

She laid in bed and thought about her day.

But Jisoo wasn't over it.

She couldn't be.

Taehyung.

He..

Left.

Left her alone, to her thoughts, not even a message, or anything.

Was his "being nice" just an act? Did he intend to do this? Didn't he know she liked him? Then why did he leave? Didn't he always promise her that he'll never leave? Why did he now?

How could he?

"OUT OF ALL THE HINTS I DROPPED, SO MUCH OF WORK I DID, FOR HIM TO LEAVE."

It was midnight, Jisoo was crying hard, sobbing, and silent screaming.

"I knew it was coming, but I didn't think it would hurt that bad."

But it did.

While Taehyung had no memory of hers and was all good even without talking to her and leaving school, it drove her insane.

While crying, she received a message.

It was Jungkook.

He was also sad.

Jennie had to leave and stopped messaging for some days, but somehow it made her feel empty.

Jungkook loved jennie even before she did, and she never really admitted her feelings.

But he did, He loved her more than anyone.

More than anyone could ever try.

They both were the same person.

But even Taehyung and Jennie were.

The same.

Both couples could balance eachother out, if the other 2 liked them.

But the beauty of one sided love drives people insane.

"He made me a poet, an artist, and someone different, whom I never wanted to be"

Jisoo said, to her only one friend for now, Jungkook.

"She made me her poem, art, and a different human, whom I always looked up to"

Jungkook replied to Jisoo.

Both the couples failed in such a way that one couldn't love and the other couldn't stop loving.

So we're all alone?

They left us?

Both the friends said.

They we're stuck in the same, old thing.

But refused to come out.

"I may sound crazy right now, but I refuse to be pulled out of the mess I made, I refuse forgetting him, let me pull myself apart in this, but I want him, I cant, I need that one human, who became a drug, and left so swiftly, as stupid as my words might feel, I loved too hard, as usual." Jisoo said.

"Same."Jungkook replied.

They both we're tired. 

Done with all this.

"I wish it were my funeral and you and Jen would tell Taehyung how much I really loved him." Jisoo whispered.

"Yea, but he would need to be there for that." Jungkook said, bitterly.

Taehyung was still the only one on her mind.

She wanted him, and only him.

We'll that lasted as much as it did. 

But later, 

Right after her class, which she had, a sir taught that one, he was a real creep and a headache for her, all her friends knew it, but she didn't tell it to her parents, she knew they wouldn't care.

After that hell of a class, she had to deal with her family.

Her dad was sick, or maybe just acting, but it felt fake to her.

And her mom as usual kept scolding her, nothing new anyway.

She was just too scared for the next year, it gave her anxiety.

Would the teachers be nice? even after what all happened?

No one knew, but she had to deal with it.

''sigh..''

And she then went back to studying, that was the only thing she had to do.

She opened her phone, she could clearly see Taehyung online, but not even one message from him.

It made her so angry, what did she waster so many nights for? why did he act so nice and sweet just to turn his back around, leave her all alone.

"All the stories and poems I wrote were for him, that's why I purposely sent them to him, but he doesn't read" She said to herself.

Who exactly was she angry on? 

Herself or him?

four to five months of being all sweet and cute-sy with her, and then leaving her.

She saw it coming.

She knew it would hurt.

But like this?

Where she would be trapped?

Her best best friend also leaving.

"ah It's just life, I can't do anything for it now can I? Rather be alone than with him anyway"

She lied to herself trying to manipulate herself into not liking him, but it wasn't gonna work anyway.

She lost a best friend in him, and her soul sister, 

she can't even be called that.

It hurt so bad even saying that.

Weren't they so close?

Didn't both of them say they'll never leave?

What happened to all that?

Was their bond so easy to forget?

Maybe for those two it was.

But not for Jisoo, She would never forget them.

Never.

And that's what drove her insane, she couldn't forget them. 

Or perhaps she didn't want too.