𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬.

rambles

member of choice x you

your pov

I get why you did that, I really do, I get that you get drained of me constantly reminding you that you aren't trying hard enough to change but make me see it. Make me see it... I don't feel the love you gave me when we first met i've spent all of my energy trying to get that back when I cant; like i'm doing this alone and forcing myself to think that you would actually wake up one day and think that maybe you should show me how much you love me but when?

When I use up all of my "last straws" defending your actions not only to friends but also to myself?
When I fight to hard for the love I want enough to the point it makes it seem like I have to teach you how to love me?
When I realize that maybe I don't actually deserve the treatment i'm getting?
When i've come to the thought that maybe you don't actually love me, you love the way i'm treating you, how i'd still chase you over and over again if you leave me?

but what if my last straw was actually it?
what if I stop chasing you if you choose to leave me?

maybe then would you realize you love me?
maybe then would you realize you can learn to care?

maybe then you would fight for us.

when it's too late ...