Black Spade || BxB

3| Better late than pregnant

I can't decide between what shirt to wear which shouldn't be the hardest task since I only brought 3. I ended up wearing a Megadeth T-shirt I got a few years back and leather pants that were pretty loose fitting, just how I like them.

As I put on my jewelry I start to get a little nervous about going to this bar since I've no idea if anyone has gotta recognise me. With all this stuff going on lately, nothing really feels right. Maybe it's just the empty hole still left in my heart everytime I think of Sylvia.

Nonetheless I decided that I couldn't leave without my stable eyeliner look on my eyes. I've been wearing it for so long now that it's practically just a part of me. I used to get made fun of for wearing but I don't really care anymore, and sure some people grow out of their emo phase but mine has always stuck with me and no one's complained about it in a long time.

I went to my sister's room to say goodbye to her quickly planting a little kiss on her forehead
"Love you!" Olivia and I leave her room at the same time as I leave her room. Afterwards I went to kiss my mom goodbye and repeated.

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We were crammed into the back of a beat up van that Angela managed to borrow from one of our menegers, I could feel anticipation as we made our way to the underground club. Angela was in the driver's seat, her eyes switching between the road and the GPS with a look of concentration.
I glanced over at Kobi, who was sitting beside me, his expression a mix of amusement and concern as he watched Angela navigate through the streets of my hometown.

"Think we'll make it there in one piece?" I joked, trying to lighten the mood.
Kobi chuckled, shaking his head to insinuate a big no.

"With Angela behind the wheel? "I'm not too sure."
Angela gave us a glare over her shoulder, her hands tightening on the steering wheel.

"Hey, I heard that! Just because I may have gotten us lost a couple of times doesn't mean I'm a bad driver."
I raised an eyebrow, unable to resist teasing her.

"Yeah, just like how your impeccable sense of timing always leaves us perfectly on schedule."
Angela rolled her eyes, but a mischievous grin creeped up the corners of her lips.

"Hey, you know what they say, better late than pregnant!"
Kobi and I exchanged a look, trying to suppress our laughter at Angela's unintentionally hilarious comment. Leave it to her to lighten the mood with the weirdest out of place comments.
Kobi clapped a hand on Angela's shoulder, his voice filled with seriousness.

"Alright, enough with the comedy hour. Let's focus on getting to the venue in one piece, shall we?"
Angela nodded, her grin widening as she turned her attention back to the road.

"You got it, Dad. Safety first!".

"Is this it...?" Kobi asked, giving Angela quite a dirty look, which is reasonable because the place we are at is in the middle of nowhere and all there is, is a staircase down to a door.

"Fuck it!" I say feeling a little carefree and start speed walking down the stairs. As I opened the door I'm welcomed by the sound of loud music and insane lights, just my vibe.

"I thought you said this was lowkey?" Kobi sort of asked.

"Wellllll it kindddd off isss hihihi" Angela sounds drunk already and me not wanting to join the argument I decided to go in and have a blast.

The next few hours were what you could expect, drinking, playing games, dancing... more drinking. I can't lie, I was pretty far already an hour after we arrived. The place was huge and everyone looked awesome. As the night continued I found myself alone with no idea where the others were at but I didn't really care too much, I had been drinking enough to have fun without them anyways.

I spotted Sylvia across the crowded bar, her familiar silhouette sending me a longing feeling right through me. Despite the pain of our breakup, I couldn't resist the urge to talk to her, to find closure after how it ended.

As I made my way toward her, my heart sank as I watched another guy approach her, his arm sliding around her waist possessively.
Anger bubbled up inside me as I realized he was getting touchy with her, invading the space that used to be mine.

I stood nearby, watching as Sylvia laughed at something the guy said
"Omg Lucas stop."
her laugh smile lighting up her face in a way that she used to with me. But now, it felt like a dagger to the heart.
Lucas? So that's his name I think to myself trying to find the perfect angle to listen in.

Unable to stand by any longer, I approached them, my steps heavy and my face clearly pilling hundreds of emotions.
The guy, Lucas, turned to face me, a smug grin on his face as I realise how much taller he is than me. It's not a lot but he's still almost a head taller.
Before I could stop myself, the words spilled out of my mouth with so much frustration.

"What the hell, Sylvia? After five years, you break up with me through a damn text while I'm on tour, and now you're just running around with whoever you want?"
Sylvia's expression faltered, guilt flashing in her eyes as she struggled to respond. Lucas, on the other hand, seemed unfazed by my outburst, his gaze locked on mine with an almost challenging stare.

"Hey, man, take it easy," he said casually, his hand still holding onto Sylvia's waist.

"She's a free person, just let her be."
The anger boiled inside me, fueled by the sight of another guy laying a hand on what used to be mine. But beneath the rage, a sting in my heart appeared, a reminder of the love and betrayal that still haunted me.

As the argument escalated, I realized that confronting Sylvia had only reopened old wounds, leaving me vulnerable once again. I don't even wanna start to think what Kobi would say if he had heard this interaction right now.
Instead of saying anything I just turned my back the other way and started approaching the door. Immediately as I come outside I light a smoke and I start to find my way back to my mom's house.

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