My first bout of depression was an existential sort. I constantly questioned the point of it all—with a belief in reincarnation and enlightenment, the whole thing became circular. Pointless. I still believe in those things, but I've found the point, and it is life.
Life is unique. Existence is unique.
What existed before the universe, before the Big Bang? Sort of something, because the universe came from somewhere, but also, essentially, nothing—a nothing out of which was born something.
All things that begin must end. If there was a point at which a thing did not exist, then, given infinite time, there must come again a new point at which it does not exist.
(It may also be noted that if a thing happens once, it can happen again, and, given infinite time, all things that are possible will happen, and therefore it will happen again. This is a tangential point.)
That initial nothing, that initial nonexistence, I recognize as the Divine, as the true nature of the universe, of existence. It is what existence came from, and what it will return to (and what will, some day, create some new existence). But existence in itself is the anomaly. Life is the anomaly. There is no particular point to it, not inherently—but this is a rare occasion, to experience it. Even in an unending cycle of reincarnation, not just of the individual soul but of existence as a whole, this is the only time we each get to experience it as ourselves. Even if everything were to be recreated perfectly, if we were to be recreated perfectly, it still wouldn't be us. No matter how perfect a clone is, it is never the original. The mere fact it's a reiteration precludes that.
This is our only chance to experience life. And how beautiful it is! How utterly unique; how fascinating in its intricacies; how beautifully strange! The experience is the point.
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The Philosophy of Life, the Universe, and Everything
SpiritualEvery now and then I get into a philosophical mood and start wondering about such things as our purpose here and what might be beyond death. This is the result of such wonderings. || Highest rankings: #3 Random thoughts, Regret; #2 Philosophy, Sel...
