Although it may seem like it, no i do not in fact hate Jake. Does he make stupid decisions, yes but that doesn't mean i don't like him. He's been my best friend since i was a baby but if i had to pick a person who was perfect for Bella, it would always be Edward. Never has anyone made her smile so much other then Edward, well besides me of course. Jake needs to understand that and just back up. Regardless of anything I still handed him an ice pack before he left (dad told me too, little does he know that Jake was a wolf and it didn't even leave a bruise) because its what best friends do. We'll definitely laugh about this later, or at least i definitely will.
Bella went to the Cullen's to get her hand wrapped up so i decided to just head back out with Paul. We took the truck since Bella was gonna have to ride with Edward.
"So I'm thinking going to the party won't be the best thing." I hear Paul say over the sound of the music softly playing on the radio in the background. I look over at him and look back down at my hands. "I doubt Edward would want me or any of us there."
"Yea welll I want you there. Edward will be fine with you there, Jake however will most definitely not be welcomed." I say looking out the window. I doubt that they would really want any of them there, thanks to Jake.
"But none the less, I don't want you to be uncomfortable there so i understand if you don't want to come." I reach over and gently grab his hand. He nods and squeezes my hand. "Thank you" He says softly, breathing out a sigh in relief, I smile slightly before turning to look back out the window, trying to hide my disappointment.
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"Thank you for helping with this. I know you aren't a huge fan of the Cullen's but this means a lot to me." I say to Emily while mixing my batter.
"I have nothing against them, despite what Sam thinks, and besides i love to bake, if it can make someone happy, then that's a win for me." She smiles and pats my cheek. Although i helped plan and decorate for the party, i still didn't want to show up empty handed, which, is why I'm here baking with Emily, making my favorite dessert of all time, cupcakes.
"So how are you feeling. This is gonna be you next, graduating that is, are you excited?" She asks.
"I love school." I say with a shrug. "I'm pretty content staying there, its a comfortable place for me, but yes i will be happy to be out in the real world, eventually." Which was the truth. School has always been my safe space even back in Arizona, specifically the art room. I could stay there for hours.
"OOOOO is that cupcakes." I hear Seth yell while running in to the kitchen. I smile wide and turn to face him.
"No no, those are for Becca, you can have a muffin." Emily slaps his hand away from the already made cupcakes, they are just currently waiting to be iced. He pouts before grabbing the muffin she was offering. He bites in to it and goes to sit at the table behind us. I giggle before turning back to the counter and my bowl. I debate for a while if i should talk to Emily about the whole Paul, party situation. I mean i tell her everything but these topics are always hard and the last thing i want to do is talk about it with Seth in the room but if i don't get it out now, i will just be here in my head about it. I sigh and turn to face her.
"Can i just get something of my chest right quick and yall promise it doesn't leave the room?" I ask and look back from Emily to Seth.
"Sweetie of course. I wouldn't tell a soul. Anything you say will always be safe with me...Us. Right Seth?" Emily says somewhat confidently before looking at Seth who nods his head, mouth stuffed with his second muffin.
"So um i told Paul he didn't have to come to the party and he seemed relived and I'm honestly not sure if I'm happy or upset because i really wanted him there but because of the whole Jake thing and all, they seem to be banned from coming, but then again Paul didn't do anything and im just sad an-"
"BECCA!" Emily shouts placing her bowl down and rushes over to me. "Breathe." I take a deep breath in and close my eyes while breathing out. "Good. You okay now?" I nod and go back to filling the cupcake liners. "Now slowly this time."
"I told Paul it was okay if he didn't come to the party and he seemed relived and now I'm sad." I say to her in the most simplest way i could.
"Because of Jake?" She questions leaning against the counter. I nod sadly and bite my lip, leaning my back on the counter and mix the batter around.
"And i mean i get it. It would have been extremely awkward but i guess i wanted him to at least try, you know?" I ask thinking out loud. "I don't know, i think I'm just being too sensitive. I wouldn't want him to feel awkward, Right?" I say to myself mainly not seeing the pity look Emily is sending to me. I nod feeling slightly better and shake myself out of the funk.
"Sweetie its okay to feel sad about this." She says coming up behind me and starts to rub my back. I shake my head and look at her. It just seems unfair of me to put him in this position. Like it shouldn't even be that big of a deal and yet why am i making it one.
"I don't like being sad, So I'm not gonna be." She gives me a pointed look "I'm fine. Now come on we have cupcakes to finish."
She sends a look to Seth, who just shrugs. "Fine." She says throwing her hands up and walks back over to the oven. I smile at her before looking back down. Everything is fine. Im fine. I think.
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"No no no. You should not wear jeans to graduation. Bella you only graduate high school once, or well you're supposed to." I say before sticking my tongue out at Edward, who has graduated more times then i can probably count. I decided to spend the rest of the night helping Bella pick out her graduation outfit, but it was proving to be harder then i thought, although I've known the girl my whole life, i don't know why i thought today would be different.
"Jeans are comfortable. Jeans are reliable. Why wouldn't i just wear them? Beside they are under my gown. Nobody will see them anyway, so what does it matter?" I look at Bella like she has grown too heads while she says this. I one hundred percent agree, jeans are great. Jeans are nice but for one day, could she just agree with me.
"Bella, my dear sister. Its one day, just one. Please, a dress, a skirt, something, anything besides jeans," I say pleading with her. She looks at me, me who is looking at her with puppy dog eyes, before shaking her head. "Come on. Edward, please just say you agree with me." I say looking over at him with a hopeful look. Come on. This one time agree with me. Please.
"Oh no, you're not dragging me in on this. I think she will be beautiful in whatever she's in." He says shrugging his shoulders. I glare at him. Hard. Kiss up. Bella smiles and is blushing hardcore now.
"Id rather be comfy, I'm sorry, but ill let you do my hair." She says turning to me. I sigh at her before nodding. Ill take what i get i guess.
"Fine But don't be fooled. I'll get you one day. Stop laughing eddy, i get you one day too." I say while throwing a pillow at him.
"Okay so this shirt and jeans, oh and of course my converse." She says while placing them all on her desk. I nod and smile. At least she kept the shirt i chose. "So away from me now, what are you even wearing." I shrug my hand at her and smile wide.
"Alice and Rosalie picked out a beautiful dress for me, which I'm very excited to wear, so I'm covered, now back to you. Can i do your makeup? Pleaseeeee?" I say while grabbing her arm and pulling her over to the bed to sit next to me.
"Noooo. Let me goo" She says making me grab a pillow and hit her, softly...i promise. She grabs one and hits me back, which then causes us to have a pillow fight. Meanwhile Edward is over there dying with laughter. These were the moments i was gonna miss, if or i guess when she becomes a vampire but i wasn't gonna think about that right now. Right now i was gonna enjoy my time with her. Right now i wasn't gonna think about anything. Right now i was gonna live in the moment, and try to get this girl to at least let me put lip gloss on her. And some blush. And maybe some mascara.
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Waves (Twilight)
Romance"I was always shy. I always keep quiet about my feelings but things are different now...i'm different. Thanks to him. He's honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me."
