• 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑫𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒘𝒊𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒓 •

a letter for the one who's becoming part of the story.

Yes, I wrote about us, if you read this one.

Intentionally I didn’t send any notice to you and let time told you naturally. It because I’ve seen you with much better person, and I didn’t want to ruin anything that’s been going on.

Its good for you, of course,  because this time you let go of me easily, unlike what you did before. Its nice to finally let go of me, right? You didn’t get scared too much, cause even after you left, life still goes by. I'm still living though dead inside and you no longer worried on how to make me happy when I’m unable to felt anything.

I’ve promised to write a book dedicated to you back then, but guess because I’m losing the time to actually did it, so  I just write this book. It still count, I guess? Cause I put my shoes into my characters, I didn’t even waste any time on imagination, some modifications of the situations and just wrote every things we’ve been through. Until the last second of it. I’ve made yet another thing to read by either you or other person that randomly come across this book.

There’s no special intention, just me trying to accomplish every mindless promises I’ve said back then. Though I’d be more than happy to befriended with you again, but if we becoming strangers heal you better, then so be it. Just so you know, the door to becoming friends again never closed, but if it deemed to hurtful for you to enter, its okay to avoid it.

Because you’ve put me first in everything back then, now its my time to return back the favor. Just like I’ve always said; I’ll be there when you asked me to, and I’ll go away if you ask me to. Perhaps not always true, but most of the time I follow what people told me to the best rather than initiate anything myself. Perhaps that’s why, I didn’t take any step anymore after you said to know my limits. Because I didn’t know, and perhaps, even now, I’ve crossed my limits once again.

I’m sorry, I always were. I didn’t know about love, because its such a strange concept to even think about, but all I knew were I really adore you all of the time spent together. I would like a world where we can co-exist without having to hurt each other anymore.

Its a failed one year anniversary, but I’ve been happy for those months spent and would always cherish every moments of it. Thank you, for letting me experiencing it.

 
𝟪𝗍𝗁 𝖠𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗅, 𝟤𝟢𝟤𝟦

𝖫𝖺𝗌𝗍 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝖾 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗇, 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌.