Borderline personality disorder
People with BPD may experience intense mood swings and feel uncertainty about how they see themselves.
Signs/Symptoms:
Fear of being abandoned
Unstable relationships with friends/family/partners
Distorted self-image
Impulsive behavior
Self-harming behavior (for example: cutting)
Suicidal thoughts
Highly variated mood
Chronic feeling of emptiness
The list just kept on, I can't imagine how Chen feels with all of these things. I mean the suicide and self-harm part is heartbreaking and I feel bad for how a pushed her to talk today, I should apologize.
Lucy's pov:
L: I can't believe I got an episode on shift in front of Bradford
I was crying
J: it's not your fault, he shouldn't have talked about Marc, but you handled it well, you've improved so much
L: thanks, come here
I signed for Jackson to sit next to me in the couch, we watched top chef and I fell asleep on his shoulder. Jackson took a photo and sent it to the group chat to tell everyone I was okay
The Station
A: she's cute when she sleeps
H: Tired from today?
J: yeah
T: is she okay?
J: she was a bit panicky when she got home but she calmed down
T: good
N: what happened today?
A: we'll tell you tomorrow
G: I want to hear the full story tomorrow.
T: yes sir.
Z: I'm riding with Chen this week, I think it'll help a bit.
T: yes ma'am.
Lucy's pov
I woke up in my bed, Jackson had moved me there when he saw that I was asleep. I checked my phone and saw all the new messages, I let out a small smile when I saw everyone caring about me. I went to work and had a good feeling about today, after rollcall the Captain and I started patrolling.
Z: what happened yesterday?
L: Bradford said that you told him and I asked him to not talk about it but he did and I didn't find my medication so I panicked and triggered an episode, it won't happen again ma'am.
Z: okay, thanks for telling me.
L: of course.
Z: can I say something without you panicking?
L: yeah, why wouldn't you?
Z: my mother and I, we were abused by my father for a few years and it destroyed us, and I can see how much it has affected you too
L: I-I'm so sorry I never knew
Z: yeah, no one here knows except you now, if you want I know a therapist who's great at these things, I know you already have one but a change could be good
L: yeah, that would be good I think.
We got a call and everything went great, the whole shift was really good and the Captain and I got to know each other pretty well.
Z: how about we take drinks tonight, you and me?
L: yeah that'd be a pleasure
Z: great, I'll pick you up at 7 so we can grab a bite first
L: good
Z: lunch?
L: yeah, I'm not really hungry so can I just wait here?
Z: you're eating, come on.
L: okay...
Z: it's on me, what do you want to eat?
L: veggie burger with fries please
Z: Mm great choice, I'll have the same
