Help {Dolan Fanfiction}

5.Misake?

"Grayson?" I ask in a questioning voice.

"Yes." he answered wondering what I wanted.

I look up and stare into his eyes. And then to his lips. Thinking if what I'm about to do is the right thing. But then Ethan comes to mind with the hideous blond chick I just went for it.

Forcefully I grasps his hand, lacing our fingers in a way that makes my heart beat faster. Running my fingers across his lips while gently pushing him against the cold hospital wall, our lips touch. Pressing my body against mine, a rush of heat started in my chest and slowly spread throughout every inch of my body. His hand brushing the hair out of my face and in an instant his lips were on mine yet again. At once their mouths were moving in concord, as though they couldn't get enough of each other, as though to devour each other with their lips, mouths, and tongues would be the only way to express what they felt. His mouth slowly made his way down to my neck when,

I forcefully push his off and head to who knows. Reaching a balcony that had the most beautiful view of New Jersey. All the lights to show who was enjoying the night and who was tired of the long day from work. With the cold air press against my face if allowed me to breath in a way that I haven't since I woke up.

*thoughts*

What the fuck did I just do. Are you stupid?! That's your boyfriends brother.

But he was cheating on you

I don't now that for sure.

With all my thoughts beating me up I have to tell Ethan. Rushing over to our room I run into Grayson. Literally right into his arms.

Pushing him off I attempt to run into the room but Grayson catches me in the air and pulls me away. Not screaming because I didn't want to make a scene.

"You can't tell him!" Grayson demanded.

"Why what we did was wrong. We can't keep this from him." Attempting to convince Grayson to tell Ethan.

"Well not forever but until he gets better, he just woke up, we can't put this on him on top of everything else."

Conflicted of which way to go. Grayson sounded right but something was telling me he wasn't. Agreeing I walk into our room and before fully walking in I turn around to find Grayson watching me, telling me to go in.

"Hiii." I say in a weird yet high pitchy voice.

"What's wrong?" Ethan asked while forcing him up.

"Nothing, well something. I saw you with that girl."

" Who Natalie?" He said at that blond chick walked in.

"Hi I'm Natalie, I'm a huge fan." she said walking into the room while reaching her hand out for a hand shake.

"Hi, a fan?" I said as I returned her handshake with a little fake smile.

"Yeah the Dolan Twins and I totally support you and Ethan.

"Thanks," I said extending the s, " Then what was the kiss about?"

"Oh you saw that," she said as her cheeks blushed,"it was a stage kiss, it wasn't real."

And at the moment I knew I had to tell him. It would eat at me like termites eat at wood. I could keep it in.

"Oh stage," I said giving a fake chuckle," Can you leave me and Ethan alone please."

"Oh sure thing." she said in a peppy tone.

Taking the deepest breath I could and spoke," Grayson and I kissed."

"You what!" He said in the angriest tone I could imagine.

I knew he was pissed but I needed him to hear the full story.

"Let me finish, please." I said starting to cry.

"Go." he said angry.

Not sure if he would forgive me I told him the rest, leaving out the unnecessary details.

"So when I went to g visit you I walked passed and saw you "kissing" that girl so of course I got mad. I ran to this corner of an empty hallway and balled my eyes out. But Grayson was there and one thing let to another.

Conflicted of I should tell him that me and Grayson maybe did this before. Freezing I just came out with it.

"Me and Grayson haven't done this more than once.", And before Ethan could interrupt me,
" You must be pissed, I am at myself but I understand if you want to be done I just hope I'll get another chance. I may not deserve it but I want the chance to make as many memories you a have and more. "

Walking away I felt no purpose. And that's when I knew Ethan was the figure pulling me into the light, no pushing me.