Help {Dolan Fanfiction}

2. Discovering

Laying in the silent room, not alone but with my "boyfriend" with the only sound of the beeping from the machine connected to him. As I rise from by bed searching for answers. For something that will show me who I am. Searching, I find a book that has "journal" embroidered on the top. Scanning through the book I find hand written stores with tickets and lipstick marks, and so much more. Opening my journal to the first page to read how I met him. Looking back at my "boyfriend" then I read

"Friday June 14 2013

~the guy~

Today wasn't like any other day. Waking up, putting my leadership shirt on and getting dropped off by my mom. But today I saw someone new. Someone that lit me up inside like no other has. Getting the nerve to walk up and talk to him but of course someone had to call my name. And of course it was my best friend Casey. Finding out what she wanted turned out to be irrelevant. Searching for the guy that caught my eye I found nothing. Going to my assigned age group (12-15 year old) and guess who I saw. Rushing to him as casually as I could. One thing led to another and we turned out to have a lot in common. His name was Ethan and his eyes where dreamy and so was his body. I was so glad he came on Friday. Friday is Lake Day. God bless. Camp was something I did to get out the house but when Ethan came it want just about getting out it was about Ethan and I and what we could have.

Turning around to see Ethan I see him as someone new. Not as the guy that I almost killed but the guy I almost lost and once loved. Skipping on a little further to Monday

"Monday June 24 2013

~Guts~

Something I never have the guts to do but apparently he did, and I'm glad he did. I got to camp a little earlier than usual. Me being the oldest I guess you can say I'm good with kids. One of the camp leaders said she needed a hand and I had two so I gave her more than she needed. While I was playing with the kids, Ethan came over to me with a look on his face I've never seen, like something was wrong, I was scared to hear what he had to say. As he rubbed the back of his neck he came out with it. " Do you want to go the movies with me?" And of course I said yes. Anyone would be crazy to deny. But with having to hear why he came over I knew why he was so scared who wouldn't be."

Curious on what I did I rush to the next page.

"Thursday June 27 2013

~the date~

With this being my first date in all I didn't expect it to be like the movies, perfect in all but I hoped it wasn't horrible. When he picked me up, he met my family and we left. It wasn't as bad as I though it was going to be. Not the dreaded boyfriend meets family thing. I'm just glad that we got in and out. I was not looking forward to hearing them tell Ethan all my embarrassing stories, when I was a kid. But what I wasn't informed of was that we were going to dinner. He took me to an amazing sushi place, that made the date all so much better. After we went to see The Hunger Games: Catching Fire. The night was just getting better and better. But when the night was coming to an end, I all I was expecting was something to ruin the day. But heading home with our first kiss goodbye was the best day of my life. When our lips touched it wasn't that long, and it certainly wasn't the kind of kiss you see in movies these days, but it was wonderful in its own way, and all I can remember about the moment is that when our lips touched, I knew the memory would last forever."

Looking up to see a blurry figure, wiping my tears to see its Ethan's brother.

"How are you holding up Madison." Grayson asked while helping me up off the floor.

"Who is this Madison everyone keeps calling me?"

"You, I guess you lost a little too much information when you got in a crash."

"A little?", "I remember nothing,"I say as my eyes start tear up. " You can look back to your first day of school, your first kiss, first relationship." I can't even remember my name."

"Well at least your doing better than him." Grayson says trying to make a joke.

"How can you make jokes right now your brother is in a coma!"

"I'm just trying to lighten the mood."

"Lighten the mood," I say in a sarcastic voice while tears form in my eyes. "Is there anything you need?" I say in an irritated voice.

" Not at the moment but when I do I'll let you know." Grayson responded.

After he left I laid in my not so comfortable bed and thought. Thought about how I was so stupid and only thought about myself. How I shouldn't be awake he should. He didn't deserve any of this. Everything was my fault.

Hearing the door open I look up to see Ethan.